I promise you guys there’s gonna be a day were you feel yourself again

For how long do I need to depend on someone to divert and change my mental state and mood and bring me back to the normal state. Few days I remain normal then again problem begins. This feels like a never ending cycle. Will I ever recover from this.

I feel like I’ve lost who I am , even since my depression and ocd started. I don’t even know what I like anymore:(( I doubt everything I think and it’s so draining because I just want to feel like my old self again😭 I feel like I have no motivation to get better which is bothering me so much because I want too but something is holding me back from doing what I need to do :/ with all my thoughts and doubts , I feel like I can’t trust myself . I don’t know if I’m the only one that feels this much pain

Please tell me it gets easier…it’s hard to hold on when it feels like it’s not going to ever.