- Date posted
- 3y
- Date posted
- 3y
First of all, please try and not be too hard on yourself ! The pandemic is triggering to most people, with or without OCD, and the world is going through a big wave now. It's been two years, most people I know are exhausted and anxious. It's already very tricky to differentiate between covid, other common flu viruses, irritation due to the cold weather, allergies and anxiety due to this whole situation. When one adds OCD to the mix, it's normal to get overwhelmed. Even people without OCD are having trouble self evaluating and assessing how/what they feel. Just remember that now, with this new wave, how contagious it is, and the mild symptoms, we're all constantly potentially exposed/exposing people. And staying home would be avoidance (unless there are real medical indications). This is why people get tested many times and are getting more PCR than rapid tests due to the mutation. But remember that it also means that all people know this by now, so we all know the risks of going grocery Shopping or to class. Masks are really helpful. FFP2 and N95 have been proven to be really effective in both ways. You're not responsible for anything else, if you're respecting all measures and wearing your masks. Of course, OCD looks for certainty but there is none, and it this case, it's really for everyone. Don't be too hard on yourself and this anxious phase will pass. You're doing good. You're getting tested. Keep wearing masks and respecting the rules. This anxious wave will pass.
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- 3y
Thank you so much for the advice! The strange thing in my country is that masks aren't even recommended unless for adults who have to travel by train or bus :/ I have normal medical masks but I don't know if anyone sells the better ones and like 1 in 20 adults wear them in public/grocery stores. I wear when I go grocery shopping but at my school I haven't seen a single person wearing one because for some reason the people in charge won't put many restrictions on people under 18... I don't really understand why, even when the spreading is worse now than ever
- Date posted
- 3y
Oh I see. It really depends on the country, sorry I made assumptions. In my country, some people don't wear them anymore and don't respect the safety rules even when they have heavy symptoms. I would say these people are irresponsible, for instance. The important thing is: you're doing all you can! And during this wave, maybe you can avoid meeting people that have more risk factors around you (elderly family members, disabled or chronically ill) indoors. For the rest, respecting the rules is all you can do, it's all we all can do. And keep reminding yourself that situation is tricky for everyone, so don't be too hard on yourself and do what you can without falling into the trap of avoidance! I wish you lots of luck and you can keep me/us posted about your results
- Date posted
- 3y
No worries :) I really think my country should take face masks more seriously though, because as you said, they are effective. And the fact that schools, after the christmas break when many people (for some reason) went on vacations and ski trips all gather in one place, will be a large opportunity for the virus to spread... but as you say all I can do is respect the rules and I do my best to do so and limit my contacts with people as much as possible. (Sorry for the little rant I'm just a little frustrated about how it seems like there's no pandemic at all sometimes) Thank you so much, this really helped me :) I had not thought about it as avoidance before either, but it makes a lot of sense
- Date posted
- 3y
Do not apologize and it's a pleasure to have helped even a little :) This pandemic will end at some point but in the mean time, try and do the best you can and really don't be too hard on yourself :)
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- 22w
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- 21w
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- 11w
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