- Username
- Nica
- Date posted
- 497d ago
when you were in your recovery process, when you learned to accept the thoughts was it scary at first or did the thoughts get worse? i feel like today i’ve been doing pretty good with letting my thoughts pass but i’ve just been worrying about my thoughts lately.
Yes, it was definitely scary. I remember a few months before I started doing ERP and jumping into the recovery process, my therapist tried to give me a little push. He said, “What if you agree with your thoughts? It’ll make them less scary eventually.” I said NOOOOOOPE I can’t, that’s impossible. But a few months later, it was possible. I was accepting thoughts that haunted me for 5 years. Then I realized I made *myself* sick for 5 years by fighting so much. My therapist was with me for 3 of those years (before I started in on recovering) but he knew he could only push so much or else I’d break. He’s very patient and was basically waiting for me to basically hit rock bottom hard enough that I said I wanted to get better. Fighting is futile against OCD. Or a pink elephant 😂