I only want to love him. Can I choose to love him or can I have to leave? I am so scared of my visit to psychiatrist for diagnosis. I don't want to lose him. Please, I want it to be ocd. Because od it's not OCD I will have to leave him because I'm horrible person. I can love him in my own way, right? He told me is happy with me. Even I have doubts from beginning, even I'm not so romantic person which later turns obsession I want love him. I want him in my life. Don't take him, please...

You can choose to love him! Love is a choice. OCD can’t take him from you. Sending positivity and love to you 💜

Thank you so much!

@Andate I am afraid, that psychiatrist will told me, that is not rocd, and I will have to face the truth.

@Andate I will say that not every Psychiatrist is well educated in OCD. I was assessed by an actual OCD specialist (at NOCD) and am confident in their assessment because it’s what they’re focused on. Especially with Pure O (OCD like relationship OCD that are mostly mental), having a specialist is helpful.

@LSea2021 When someone is asking me about treatment in their own case of mental health I am always recomending seeing proffesional. But in my own I'm a coward. Ocd seems to be my only hope, that's why I'm that afraid... Sadly, I can't book a visit with NOCD specialist, so I started to looking for someone in my country. But it's hard. There are plenty of psychiatrist, but it's hard to tell if they are good with diagnosing ocd... And yes, my fear is kot helping...

@Andate 💜 that sounds really challenging. I think then my best advice is this: if you see yourself in the symptoms of OCD that you’ve read about, then it’s likely that you have it (diagnosis or not). OCD will be looking for that “certainty” that comes from a diagnosis, but even if the certainty is not there you can still take steps to improve your quality of life and mental health. I’m hopeful for you!

@LSea2021 Thank you once more. I'm fighting so hard for not lose my partner. Even when my thoughts are telling me that I don't love him, I'm crying, because I want to love him so much and don't want my life without him.

You're not alone💜

Thank you so much!

Love is a choice. A YouTube channel called Awaken into Love would be something I recommend you look into. 💜 keep your chin up 💜

Thank you! ❤️I'm watching their videos, but sometimes I still feel like spiraling for most of my days..

@Andate It's rough, I get those days. On those days I tell myself live is a choice and I tell my head like hey those are interesting thoughts, thank you for bringing those to my attention however I am with them right now and that's what is important.❤

@WitchyKota Oh, I will be trying that! I have some good days, when I feel love, some backdoor spike moments and some hard days, when I can only obsessing and crying... It's really hard...

@Andate I absolutely understand. I have days where my brain will be so mean to me at night it wakes me up, and times I have to go sit in the shower and just sit with the thoughts. I constantly still ask if my eyes get big when I look at him because there are alot of days I struggle with feeling nothing, and other days I feel love. 💜 any progress is progress 💜 you've fot this!