I don’t know if my love really loved me or not. It’s crazy. I keep feeling like she love bombed me and got what she wanted and left. What’s even worse is she left me with the crib, not responsible for any debt, and said don’t worry about anything. It just makes me feel like I’m not seeing something🤷🏾‍♂️ All on top of moving to Delaware with her sister right away and getting a job within the next week. Am I tripping? But I just can’t seem to shake this thought. All on top of that my neighbor just started being extra nice to me and we been hanging out but she’s like invasive. Asking way too many questions. Then I get this weird text. Please talk this out with me.

Bookworm91

Date posted: 3y

Dude block the nut job. If women don’t want men to talk to them like that they shouldn’t talk to men like that. That is NOT right. You’re not something for her to ride and throw aside

FacingWhatSc...

Date posted: 3y

Agreed. And the thing that’s crazy is this is a random number. I never got any messages from this number except on Christmas. I got like a slew of Merry Christmas text all same area code but I feel like it’s someone messing with me. I feel like it’s her but I’m not sure so I try not to ruminate on it too much. But it’s killing me.

LisaP99

Date posted: 3y

@FacingWhatScaresMe Yes! So agree with with bookworm, block whoever that is! Those texts are invasive. I’m not an angel by any means but that’s so not classy.

LisaP99

Date posted: 3y

@FacingWhatScaresMe Makes me feel yucky. Run! Lol

FacingWhatSc...

Date posted: 3y

@LisaP99 Yea that’s what I’m saying. Seems weird. Appreciate your insight.

Nica

Date posted: 3y

Uhhh.. that’s incredibly weird. Sounds a little unhinged honestly.

LisaP99

Date posted: 3y

As far as your wife, I’m sorry. That really sucks about the financial aspects too. What would help me, I write out the whole story my ocd is telling, everything, I even write out what happens next in the future and in the end I write even if this all happens I will be ok. My therapist would instruct me to record it and listen to it until it’s old news but I find it helps just writing it out

FacingWhatSc...

Date posted: 3y

Thank you for the advice.

LisaP99

Date posted: 3y

@FacingWhatScaresMe The writing is basically making it concrete, takes the sting away. But the recording and listening on loop, that’s a fear script. if ur not familiar with fear scripts, they make you want to vomit at first but now I fall asleep to mine, ha. It’s like seeing a very scary movie ten times after a while it gets boring

FacingWhatSc...

Date posted: 3y

*if my wife

FacingWhatSc...

Date posted: 3y

Yea I try to reinforce the OCD but it’s way too coincidental for my conscious.

FacingWhatSc...

Date posted: 3y

*try not

FacingWhatSc...

Date posted: 3y

Lol I like that analogy about it being a scary movie. I wrote everything out. I read it a few 100 times then I destroyed it. Just a way of “throwing away” the thought. The fear script sounds legit tho. I may have to try that.

LisaP99

Date posted: 3y

Yeah letting go. Good luck. I do limit to listening to it 30 minutes a day and sometimes when I get triggered. If I start ruminating with it, then I cut it off. I hope you get some help and healing. And during this vulnerable time, stay away from ppl who give you a bad feeling. Ur wife did some messed up stuff but hate to have a even worse person prey on you while ur hurt

FacingWhatSc...

Date posted: 3y

@LisaP99 Thank you and will do 🙏🏾

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