For those of you that need it today. Excerpt from “Because We Are Bad: OCD and a Girl Lost in Thought” by Lily Bailey.

YES 100%. My OCD is starting to lean towards that, specifically, but I’m trying to accept that they’re just thoughts so maybe they can go away on their own.

I know. Just remember the thoughts do not have power. You give the thoughts power by your reaction to them. Trust me, I know it’s hard. Today has been really tough for me, but OCD is just the way our brain is hardwired it’s not our fault. I recently read something that said it is our responsibility to manage our OCD even though it isn’t our fault. The only way to get over the thoughts is to go through them! You got this!

@ces089 I’m really sorry to bother you but I’m having a really hard time and I needed someone to talk to. I’m scared I said that’s what I went through the motions of saying that’s like me but it’s not I just felt kind of cricket so to speak or a strain like I didn’t feel right like you’re waiting for something to happen and it’s not going to and then I said maybe and I don’t wanna I don’t wanna see me but I don’t want to feel perky why would I feel perky say maybe i’m gonna not there’s no maybe and I’m I’m scared I made a face like he’s yucky and said not but I am physically attracted to my guy he’s not yucky I don’t like thinking like that acting like he’s gross after saying maybe but I’m not! Why did I feel so open in the chest and perky after saying maybe I am I’m not there’s no maybe. Oh I’m scared of genuinely I don’t wanna think he’s gross I don’t wanna switch teams I don’t want maybe I am to be real it’s not true I’m not gay! I’m scared of the cringing faces I’m making why am I acting like he’s gross when he’s not I’m NOT GAY THERES NO MAYBE I was gonna say he’s the farthest thing from gross and then keep saying but he’s not the farthest thing from being attractive he ice try to say what he’s not disgusting and I try to save the boobs or not attractive there’s no maybe I am and all there’s no maybe there’s no maybe. I’m scared I have an I don’t want to be I’m not OK with it I don’t wanna switch teams and I don’t like saying making a face like I smell something that he’s sexy he’s far from EW my guy

@Bookworm91 That’s okay. OCD will make you question all your reactions, thoughts and sensations. The key is to ignore your OCD. I know that’s extremely hard. You have to trust yourself. OCD targets our values, like the quote above states, your OCD thoughts will make you believe the opposite of how you feel. It is okay to experience these thoughts. Just remember OCD is not your fault but you do have the power to challenge and fight your OCD. It is a daily struggle but it is 10x better than feeling the way you do, trying to tough it out on a daily basis. I know OCD is hard but you have the power to make a choice to show your thoughts strength and indifference or to give into the fear. You can do this.

@ces089 Thank you for responding 🙏🏻 I’ll try

@Bookworm91 I’m scared of these sensations I know that I don’t like boobs I’ve never enjoyed them despite my smiling in the conjuring up in my mind all these images despite that like real life don’t like it I mean I’m not enjoying myself now but you know what I mean I think. And I’m scared I’m just really scared I thought I’m scared I can’t enjoy it anymore I keep making faces but I’ve always liked not really big ones but I’ve always like a guys chest and now I’m scared I won’t be able to enjoy that again I keep making faces and I don’t want to

@Bookworm91 Nice try to say my hearts never been into them and neither has my body boobs I mean then I keep thinking how lazy I am so never been and I say it with I’m scared like I mean it kind of thing I don’t know what kind of a motion to call it looks like a lot of series is like I’ve never like I’m just too lazy my heart but I said never I’ve always been into him I mean my guy I keep saying seriously annoying up and down my heart never I’ve always been into him I’m lazy but not that lazy I have always been and I keep saying in that kind of homework I’m serious like hearts not my heart has always been and I really do love my guy

@Bookworm91 ** im scared I tried to say. Man this Phone sucks that keeps saying heart has never my heart has always been in it with him