Is their someone with OCD of ASPD (sociopathy)? I want to talk

I don’t have that, but if you want to talk I’d be happy to listen

I know a lot about AsPD and I‘m not concerned at all about this. It reminds me that I show a lot of traits in my childhood. As I know I never had a conscience or felt remorse. As child I saw I was different. I was pissed of when someone cried and had a completely lack of empathy and remorse. I saw lying and manipulating as something good and did it better and better. I let me believe I am emotional and empathic. I also learned to charm others. I learned to read others and use it for myself and to help friends. I never felt chemical love, I only missed a girl, cause she entertained me. I loved girls in a sexual way a lot, like I admire their body’s and they are hot. That’s my kind of love. My parents are both sociopathic (so it runs in my family). None was ever in prison. They are CEOs, doctors, scientists and others, all highly intelligent and high functioning too, only my aunt how died cause of substance abuse (when she died I felt nothing and fake sadness, cause I know others would see me as cold when I don‘t fake it). I was upset to go too her funeral, cause she was to dumb to quit. After her funeral I felt great to go home and that others don’t cry again. The last test i‘ve done, showed me I have an logical IQ over 145 and others are in the 120+ and others under 90 ranke (they said I‘m highly intelligent). That explain my stoic and philosophical way to think about something. Before an year a psychologist diagnosed me with depression and said I feel nothing cause I‘m depressed and when I‘m not depressed I would only feel 0-3. I have strong problems with sympathy I can only feel it, with some people who reminds me as a toddler. I have a very high self-esteem how changed a little cause of addiction. I consuming it cause I‘m bored all the time. When I‘m afraid I only feel adrenaline and a little joy. I hyper focus to solve the problem. I don’t feel fear for others and have problems to see the danger in the situation. I never care what others think about me and yes I‘m diagnosed with OCD. My OCD shows mostly in perfection and sometimes in OCD thoughts who are only egocentric thoughts. I‘m not a narcissist (my psychologist said it and I don’t show the traits of grandiosity and admiration. I don’t love or hate myself (trust me, I tired ^^) but I like myself. Is that OCD?

Thank that you answer. I only show low depression. I was tired and anger most of the time. Yeah, that’s great to hear, but the psychologist said I felt 0-3 when I was born. It has nothing to do with depression. When I was depressed I felt nothing, but also not emotional pain, just the physical part. That with the IQ part is totally true. I no someone who have an IQ over 120 and suffer from OCD. I don’t have an IQ of 145, but in some part I‘m over 145. I don’t think I have OCD about ASPD, but I have OCD so it’s weird. My ASPD is outwardly I had many problems with the court and society. I make nothing and think logical about it

Wow thank you for sharing your story and for going into such detail. You mentioned some really interesting things about your OCD. First, data shows its highly co-morbid with depression, so about 1 of 3 people with OCD also suffer from depression. That means many people in this community, myself included, understand what it’s like to feel what you are feeling. Second, data also shows that the average IQ of someone with OCD is 110. Although you are at the 145 level, a couple standard deviations higher than most with OCD, the reason why I bring that up is because it means people with OCD are naturally highly intelligent. Here are some questions: when did your ASPD OCD onset? Are your compulsions outwardly or mental? What do you do to resist doing compulsions? I

I don’t know for sure my IQ-score and to tell the truth, I don’t care about my score. I saw on the test I was mostly in the rank of 160 and she only said I‘m really bright, that’s all. I converted the values in the American system. In my country mostly tests, go only on 130-45 and with genius scores 160. I had results over 140 in my country, what means I have the mind of an intellectual and philosophers. I‘m extremely logical and analytical. In America an IQ over 140 would be an IQ over 164 (Yeah, genius I know). I‘m sure my logical IQ score would be over 150 (sd 24 over 180), if it would be tested more detailed, but I‘m to lazy to test again. I don’t hear classical music and don’t read many books, I don’t learn quantum mechanics, don’t read books of Ludwig Wittgenstein, don’t play chess, but I make sometimes puzzles to keep my mind fit and read a lot about psychopathology, and studied with 15 the mind of serial murderers. I like psychology and think of becoming a psychiatrist myself. The psychologist said I was so unchallenged, to be good at school. People with IQ of 120 make brillant students, but people with IQ‘s over 135 are unchallenged and need more stimulation. I was one of the worst students in the class.

The formula to convert from American to Europe is: IQ-score/24*15+100= converted in Europe IQ-score. For Europe to America: Europe IQ-score*24/15+100= American IQ-score.