Yesterday I shared a post but nobody replied, I feel like I've really seen something illegal. I don't think I can live with that.

How about instead of writing them down you do other things ? Like take this for example - whenever I’m ocd strikes me and I get triggered by thoughts I clean up my room or organize (not unless you have perfectionism ocd ) than I wouldn’t suggest it bc ur obsessing - but rather do it as a way to cope with anxiety or even do it as an exposure as well!

What did you see? And regardless of what you may have seen, it doesn't determine your character.

This actually happened to me recently as well. What I've learned is that there is a niche group of people on this internet that have "fantasies" of being with strangely young women, and the actresses attract that audience by presenting as practically underage. What you saw was probably one of those thumbnails. Trust me, it freaks me out as well. Hopefully that helps :)

What was it

It’s okay go for it . I dealt with POCD 3 years ago but I’ve moved on that theme

Be exposed to ur thoughts ...even if it means writing about them

tw // p*rn Yesterday I was scrolling through a normal "mainstream" p*rn site (xHamster) and I got triggered two times. A pop-up ad grid appeared on the side of the screen with multiple naked people (adults), but one of them looked like a literal c***d, I was so weirded out that I kept looking at the image, for too long, really hoping I was mistaken. I tried to ignore it and to move on, thinking that maybe it was ocd making things up (but now I don't think so, it looked to real). And then while I was scrolling through the site I came across a video that in the front cover had a japanese girl that really looked like a c***d. (I didn't click on it) The weird thing is that the video was old and had milions of views and there was also the name of the supposed "actress" in the title, so if it was I feared to be, it wouldn't make sense that the video was still on, on a site like xhamster that is supposed to follow the guidelines and avoid this sort of things to happen. But I'm still really afraid that I've seen something illegal, it all looked too real. The worst part is that one after getting triggered this much is supposed to lose the drive to j*ck off but I closed the tab, opened another one and choose a video with a mature woman looking and did it anyway. I feel so guilty.