OCD
A life with fear
Uncertainty at its best
As my mind races and races
I can only pray for rest
Relentless thoughts cause crippling anxiety
A moment of silence
Maybe that will set me free
Am I too fat, to loud to brass
Will they ever like me
A question I always seemed to ask
Am I failing as a mother
My thoughts they told me so
They need me to be strong
But the demons told me no
I hid behind a smile
A laugh a strength not there
You saw something fake
The real me, too afraid to share
This was my reality
The world I knew too well
I refused to be defined by this
Now my life a story I want to tell
My thoughts will NOT consume me
Try I’m sure they’ll do
But thoughts that’s all they are
I will overcome and be made new
Fear you’ve had control on me
For far to long now
No longer will you define me
I make this my solemn vow
The future is uncertain
But I know this oh so well
I will continue everyday to be
A better version of myself
With God by my side
Medication and counseling in hand
I WILL continue to overcome
Each day getting stronger
My life I take command
By Me (Hilary R)