- Username
- Anonymous
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 2y ago
Yes, I have. OCD won't let me let go of my mistakes. Even things that aren't necessarily bad I twist and turn in my head until it feels like I've done something unforgivable and I feel like I'll be forever marked by everything I've done wrong. And of course some things we do are genuinely bad, but in my experience OCD often blows such things out of proportion. I've thought much about how people without OCD react to their mistakes, but if they react like I do, everyone would go around feeling like the worst person ever. I doubt that, and besides, everyone can't be the worst at once :) I'm doing ERP therapy for it right now. I've done it before for other OCD themes and it works!
Good way of explaining it. I have told friends my story and several therapists and nobody has had a negative reaction. But the ocd says what if someone makes it worse than it was?
Oh yes I have real event ocd over something that happened as a boy. My NOCD therapist and erp therapy have helped me to realize that ocd is a liar. When we are children we do the best we can and as we learn we do better.
Thank you for sharing,in the back of my mind,I know this,and I feel really bad about it,I’m not sure how to approach it,just sit with it,or agree with it,that’s the part that always confuses me.
It’s okay to feel bad about it. We all do things we regret and would like to take back. But we can’t and we learned a valuable lesson from it then we can be assured we are being our best selves.
Then it starts with,is there anything else you did that you don’t remember?it’s like being a hamster on a wheel,and you can’t get off!
Yup I have the same struggle, and I opened up to someone without ocd once and she admitted to doing something she deeply regretted as a child too. I think that everyone has done something really weird/out of the ordinary before our brain was fully developed and we knew better. That’s just a part of being a child. I know I could never say what I did out loud but I know that I would NEVER dream of doing this now that I am mature and I understand right from wrong
Exactly- doing something as a child is a far cry from doing something as an adult. A child acts impulsively and with maturity we know better as adults.
‘Real event’ OCD? I don’t see much about this anywhere and was wondering if anyone else suffers with this? When I was younger I had contamination ocd and health anxiety. Now I’m 23 and obsess over something that actually happened. It’s killing me.
Anyone else struggle with real event type OCD (OCD latches on to a real life situation you’ve experienced)? How can we know the difference between what actually happened and if it’s just my OCD making me feel like a horrible person? Specifically with harm/pedophile OCD. Anyone ever experienced this before?
I have Real event ocd about things I did as a kid at 12/13. It’s killing me because it really happened but I feel like a different person now completely. my actions disgust me and it makes me feel like i don’t deserve to be alive. I constantly have flashbacks about the events and it sends me into a state of panic, I feel as if my younger self has traumatized my older self. i’m so scared that things I did make this true, i really am a bad person, even though i’m an adult now and would never never ever do that again. I’m so scared. All I want is to be a good person but I keep remembering gross things I did and now I feel like the biggest fraud to friends and family and everything good in my life.
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