Don’t trust everything you see and read on the internet.
I'm going thru this also. Just when I feel relief .. I'm in my head, wow, I'm not thinking about that. ... then it starts all over again. ... I'm about to make an appt with a ERP therapist in my area, but she's so young. I don't know how much experience she has and I'm scared that it won't work for me. So I'm having ROCD and fear of seeing her. Its awful.