All I want is no doubt. No intrusive thoughts. No triggers that cause intrusive thoughts. Even some videos on the internet make me doubt in my true feelings.

Don’t trust everything you see and read on the internet.

I'm going thru this also. Just when I feel relief .. I'm in my head, wow, I'm not thinking about that. ... then it starts all over again. ... I'm about to make an appt with a ERP therapist in my area, but she's so young. I don't know how much experience she has and I'm scared that it won't work for me. So I'm having ROCD and fear of seeing her. Its awful.

Same.