Is erp's task to evoke anxiety and intrusive thoughts or rather to show that when we do something, we will not think about anything bad and nothing will happen?

but, no, I cant handle nothing if I hurt my bf

@Ania Mizyn Your anxiety about the THOUGHT will go down and you’ll eventually disregard the thought. ERP is magic just trust the process ❤️

Sorry to hear that... My former therapist didn't do ERP right and we started with the most terrifying part of it (for context, I have contamination OCD) and it was traumatizing. But I went to another one, and we go step by step. If you can't handle the panic and anxiety of it, you'll start with just imagining scenarios and sometimes medication comes in handy at the beginning, if it's something you're confortable with. Please don't give up on therapy because of one therapist. It can be draining to find someone, but it's worth it to ease your mind.

@Anonymous22 I just cant seem to get over that barrier. I know logically I should just go deal. But the stubborn part of me is, not even willing. I'm currently taking 5HTP over the counter serotonin builder, but I'm afraid I'm gonna need something stronger. . And I just hate taking chemical pills. 😒 .. I totally appreciate your feedback. It is helpful to know I'm not totally alone.

@jemcu812 I can imagine and I absolutely don't judge. This is why OCD sucks. I also understand wanting to avoid pills if you can. They are helpful, but it's still an adjustment and they have pros and cons, like any medication. (I'm pro medication when it's too debilitating, but it's a personal choice) Maybe you can try one appointment without putting too much pressure on yourself, expose your situation and current limitations and mention your past experience and see if the therapist can help you and what they can offer. No strings attached, just check the menu and see if it could work for you (without it being too "easy" or enabling). (And of course if you're in a position to try, don't know how it works in your country, but where I got therapy, you can do "test sessions" that insurance covers)

@Anonymous22 You're being so helpful. I need to just lose my ego and just go, but my fear is. If it's a crappy connect, I'll be mad at myself for trying , then I'll obsess about that too. Arghhh.! I sounds so pathetic

@jemcu812 Don't be too hard on yourself and maybe if you feel less anxious in general or about it (of you're in a stressful phase right now or if winters are Generally harder for you) and try at a moment when you feel less resistant. Be patient with yourself, it's hard to control those thoughts and I hope you'll slowly open up more to the idea. It could be bad, but it could also be neutral or actually promising. You can't really now for now. I hope you'll manage to try 🙏

@Anonymous22 You can go* and try

@Anonymous22 I got you 😉