PLEASE help. existential ocd is destroying me and it feels like my purpose in life is just gone. i find absolutely no joy in anything i do anymore because one day i will die. i’m agnostic and afraid. please help. i feel like i’m already dead. i feel so hopeless and pointless. every day all i do is go to zoom class and cry. sometimes i eat. sometimes i work out. i used to love to draw and play video games, they were my passion. learning and creating were also a huge passion of mine. but suddenly about 2 and a half weeks ago (jan 4th or 5th?) everything was just taken from me without warning. i feel purposeless. everything i do is a waste of time, because i will die someday. i feel worthless and all i do is cry. how do i get myself back? i feel like even if i get myself back, it’s pointless. if i’m happy, it’s pointless. because one day i’ll die and i don’t know if there’s anything after that. i’m soulless.

Existential ocd is deeply affecting me. A lot of people say death is equally as meaningless, I do agree, however, if life is mostly suffering and anxiety to me, then death is not as equally meaningless. It seems logical. I have severe ocd and my life is just suffering, so if life is meaningless, it’s logical for me to not see a reason to keep going. I’m not necessarily depressed. Just incredibly aware of how pointless this all is? There’s no end goal to any of this. It baffles me of how people can care about money and materialistic things, because what’s the point? You’ll die in the end and nothing will matter. ****please please please do not tell me to get into religion I’m begging you****

Hi guys so this existential theme is like a final boss in all ocd themes for me. I just dont know what to do tbh. My main problem is that whatever iam doing my mind goes: whats the point? Iam watching tiktok about workout my mind goes: there is no point. Iam planning vacation: there is no point. Iam tired of this. I don’t know if its still ocd or what but what i know is that it complitelly ruining my life and i have zero peace. If someone can help me with these meaning of life and point of life thoughts i will be so gratefull because iam starting to feel hopeless.

I can’t stop thinking about death today. Not like suicide or pondering how I could die. Just more so I’m going to die. It’s like. I was eating my pizza today listening to music and looking at the clouds. And I was like I love this this is amazing. And then Brain says “ur gonna die one day btw” Or I redid my wallpaper on my phone and I love the way it looks. I unlock my screen and admire the vibe I’ve created. And then brain says “one day you’ll be dead” When I feel a moment of joy or happiness or peace is when the thought screams at me. I’m really unsettled and distraught about thinking about being dead one day. This doesn’t come up often like other thoughts I have but I hate this one because it’s hard to cope with. Because I do the things and “techniques” to make them quieter. But then immediately Brain says “why are u even trying tho. It’s pointless because you’ll be dead one day.” Any advice ??