Anonymous20222

Date posted: 3y

i’m so annoyed, every time i read a trans story they always say it’s something they wished and wanted since they were born i never wished or wanted that was always happy with who i was and some others say when they got a bit older and found out what transgender meant they were happy and wanted that but i’ve known what transgender was for years and i never had any meaning to it i supported it but i didn’t react i’ve never felt gender dysphoria either or hated my body most say they do as a kid i never did i’m not the most masculine man but i’m not very feminine either i’m like maybe in the middle? i’m like bi/gay as well so i feel it’s harder to have tocd when ur bi/gay this tocd all happened a month ago and it’s just been annoying me since and it’s making me think i must become a girl and change who i am and it kills me and makes me so sad like i don’t want that and just want to stay me.

Brian :)

Date posted: 3y

You’re having this too? I am a cis gay male and is having this theme too.

Anonymous20222

Date posted: 3y

yeah man it’s awful i’m sorry you’re going through that do you remenber how or when it started for you?

Aakron

Date posted: 3y

I am also a cis gay man and it's so hard because everything I did that was "gay" (being feminine at all) feels like some sort of indicator

Anonymous20222

Date posted: 3y

right. it’s awful like gay men are more feminine as kids but it’s just bc we’re gay and then it’s hard bc ocd uses that as “proof” of being trans it’s annoying af. im not very masculine or feminine i dress more masculine tho but my personality is kinda both but i still was always a man and now it’s making me scared to do anything even a little feminine again but i’m gay guy and now my tocd is making me act more like a straight man lol

Aakron

Date posted: 3y

@Anonymous20222 Yes! I've always been more "fashionable" than most men so my brain was like "THAT MEANS ect..." or I said things like calling my friends gurll, or the way I sat. It really went after everything. How long have you been dealing with this theme?

Brian :)

Date posted: 3y

@Anonymous20222 I Relate to this

Anonymous20222

Date posted: 3y

@Aakron i’ve been dealing with it for over a month now it’s awful how about you

Aakron

Date posted: 3y

@Anonymous20222 Month 6 for me

ts97

Date posted: 3y

I feel so relieved but also sad to have gone through this comments between the three of you. It’s exactly how I’ve been feeling. It’s the most frustrating/depressing thing I have experienced in my life. Anytime I get the thought “I must be trans because I’ve never been happy” I just break down. I don’t even have the strength to argue anymore. I just feel consumed by these thoughts. Literally everything triggers my ocd.

Anonymous20222

Date posted: 3y

i’m so sorry man just know you aren’t alone i feel the exact same way

Brian :)

Date posted: 3y

Sore for such late response , I got caught up on work. I never talked wit other guys who experienced same ocd theme I have . And for me it started 2 years ago .

Brian :)

Date posted: 3y

I’d really love to chat with you guys more .

Anonymous20222

Date posted: 3y

same do you have insta or something?

Aakron

Date posted: 3y

I'd be down for that. I do have Insta

Aakron

Date posted: 3y

@Anonymous20222 @aacron23

Anonymous20222

Date posted: 3y

@Aakron i’m gonna text u guys from a private account i don’t use it that’s okay @kissitrem

Brian :)

Date posted: 3y

Yes guys my insta is Brian_rico18 l

Anonymous20222

Date posted: 3y

it’s not letting me dm you try dm me @kissitrem

Brian :)

Date posted: 3y

You guys were so lucky enough to have discovered NOCD befofe I did. Or at least just in time you were experiencing this theme. I mainly downloaded NOCD for this reason and I been dealing with it for 2 years starting Nov. 2019

ts97

Date posted: 3y

Thankyou. My Instagram is tshirgba_3 in case anyone wants to chat

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