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You’re having this too? I am a cis gay male and is having this theme too.
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yeah man it’s awful i’m sorry you’re going through that do you remenber how or when it started for you?
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I am also a cis gay man and it's so hard because everything I did that was "gay" (being feminine at all) feels like some sort of indicator
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right. it’s awful like gay men are more feminine as kids but it’s just bc we’re gay and then it’s hard bc ocd uses that as “proof” of being trans it’s annoying af. im not very masculine or feminine i dress more masculine tho but my personality is kinda both but i still was always a man and now it’s making me scared to do anything even a little feminine again but i’m gay guy and now my tocd is making me act more like a straight man lol
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@Anonymous20222 Yes! I've always been more "fashionable" than most men so my brain was like "THAT MEANS ect..." or I said things like calling my friends gurll, or the way I sat. It really went after everything. How long have you been dealing with this theme?
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@Anonymous20222 I Relate to this
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@Aakron i’ve been dealing with it for over a month now it’s awful how about you
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@Anonymous20222 Month 6 for me
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I feel so relieved but also sad to have gone through this comments between the three of you. It’s exactly how I’ve been feeling. It’s the most frustrating/depressing thing I have experienced in my life. Anytime I get the thought “I must be trans because I’ve never been happy” I just break down. I don’t even have the strength to argue anymore. I just feel consumed by these thoughts. Literally everything triggers my ocd.
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i’m so sorry man just know you aren’t alone i feel the exact same way
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Sore for such late response , I got caught up on work. I never talked wit other guys who experienced same ocd theme I have . And for me it started 2 years ago .
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I’d really love to chat with you guys more .
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same do you have insta or something?
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I'd be down for that. I do have Insta
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@Anonymous20222 @aacron23
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@Aakron i’m gonna text u guys from a private account i don’t use it that’s okay @kissitrem
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Yes guys my insta is Brian_rico18 l
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it’s not letting me dm you try dm me @kissitrem
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You guys were so lucky enough to have discovered NOCD befofe I did. Or at least just in time you were experiencing this theme. I mainly downloaded NOCD for this reason and I been dealing with it for 2 years starting Nov. 2019
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Thankyou. My Instagram is tshirgba_3 in case anyone wants to chat
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My boyfriend is ftm, and I’m very supportive of him and his journey with gender. It opened a lot of conversations between us about each others gender/sexuality. I’ve known for a long time that i’m pan, but I’ve struggled a lot with my own gender. My OCD causes me to doubt myself a lot, one day i feel hyper feminine and have no desire to identify as a man, but the next day I am extremely dysphoric about my body/hair/voice and wonder if I’m ftm as well? and then it goes away the next day. Some days I don’t even feel feminine OR masculine. I spend a lot of my time ruminating over if i’m trans, and abt the possibility of me spending the rest of my life either not knowing, or settling for whatever’s easiest for myself and everyone around me. I don’t know if I actually believe I’m a man, or if I’m pretending, or if it’s just in my head. Its like I don’t know what to trust since my opinion is different every day, and it feels like I can’t trust my own intuition. It’s starting to affect my sex drive, my sleep, my self confidence, and my self image. It’s really confusing me and I’m wondering if anyone can relate or has some advice. Thank you:)
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I feel different from others, I don’t feel as feminine and I feel like I’ve changed. I’m not sure why I feel this way. I also don’t think my ocd is ocd, it’s just something I told myself to feel better. I know! What if I am what if I’m not, I get it, but I don’t feel like i have a choice in the matter anymore. I have soocd and it’s eaten me alive for years. I woke up out of my sleep and got triggered and here I am. I don’t know what I feel anymore. I always wanted a boyfriend and now It seemed to change. I don’t want a girlfriend, it’s just that I don’t see anything for myself and I feel like I’m hiding. It’s hard to explain. Plus sometimes the way I move or speak makes me feel more masculine and it kills me. Im feeling so lost and alone right now. I know what I want deep down but I feel incapable of having those things because I won’t be able to have feeling. If that makes sense.
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I wouldn’t really say I have SO-OCD, but it manifests in some areas of my TOCD. Like if I see a woman for example my thoughts will go “what if I like her but as a man?” like my thoughts say I’m a straight man instead of a straight woman. And it’s really bothering me. If I see an attractive woman my brain will re-wire and imagine myself as a man looking at an attraction woman and it gets super uncomfortable that I have to like shake my head and say “no no no no no” multiple times to get the thought out. I know that counts as a compulsion but it’s hard to not do it because it’s so triggering. Now I don’t mind if I like women, however I’m really scared that I’m actually a straight man who likes women (or at least a bisexual man, considering I like men) and I hate it because I don’t want to be a man. Like I’ll think of my desired relationship as a woman dating a man but my OCD will switch it up to me being the man dating the woman, which is the opposite of what I want. I don’t want to be a man at all and I don’t want to date a woman, both of those are the opposite of my desires, but I’m still so scared. I’ll accept myself if I actually like women and am a bisexual woman, however I heard that being bisexual can mean being trans which scares me (for the record it was said in reddit by a sub which is mainly focused on a pseudoscientific phenomenon, that is still believed by the members to be true, so it’s definitely not a trustworthy statement, but my OCD will use anything to work against me) Does anyone here relate a little? 🥲
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