I am such a horrible person, I cant even try to fight this feeling that I am a bad person, its like I gave up. I just forget my existence. I cant hold this more. I hate myself so much. I just want to end it all.

I sometimes think I deserve bad things because of what I’ve gone through. And it gets just as bad as you’ve described. I won’t say I’m recovered from that but i will say that it comes and goes. And it feels so real but it’s not

I know it’s a hard thing to deal with but please don’t let the OCD win. I deal with those kind of thoughts everyday the OCD telling me I’m a terrible awful person and I don’t deserve anything good in life. I know what you’re going through. It makes life hell sometimes but OCD is just OCD. It likes to make us believe the worst about ourselves when the evidence points to the opposite. If you need to talk more I’m open to listen. I’m here to help.

Hello, I know how hard battling OCD can be. I have been in your exact position before where I felt there was no hope. Through ERP and refusing to engage with the thoughts I was able to get better. And you can too! Take small steps at first. Try not engaging with the thoughts for 5 minutes, then 10, then 20, etc at a time. Tell your brain “nope not thinking that thought for ____ amount of minutes” and stick to it. Try to accept the uncertainty of the thoughts. Tell OCD “yep, I might be a bad person but I don’t care. I am going to continue my day but you can keep bringing these thoughts up if you want.” It will definitely be tough but you can do this! Do 1% better every day and in 100 days you will be 100% better!

Why do you believe you are a bad person?

Please don't it is not worth it