- Username
- Heello
- Date posted
- 2y ago
I sometimes think I deserve bad things because of what I’ve gone through. And it gets just as bad as you’ve described. I won’t say I’m recovered from that but i will say that it comes and goes. And it feels so real but it’s not
I know it’s a hard thing to deal with but please don’t let the OCD win. I deal with those kind of thoughts everyday the OCD telling me I’m a terrible awful person and I don’t deserve anything good in life. I know what you’re going through. It makes life hell sometimes but OCD is just OCD. It likes to make us believe the worst about ourselves when the evidence points to the opposite. If you need to talk more I’m open to listen. I’m here to help.
Hello, I know how hard battling OCD can be. I have been in your exact position before where I felt there was no hope. Through ERP and refusing to engage with the thoughts I was able to get better. And you can too! Take small steps at first. Try not engaging with the thoughts for 5 minutes, then 10, then 20, etc at a time. Tell your brain “nope not thinking that thought for ____ amount of minutes” and stick to it. Try to accept the uncertainty of the thoughts. Tell OCD “yep, I might be a bad person but I don’t care. I am going to continue my day but you can keep bringing these thoughts up if you want.” It will definitely be tough but you can do this! Do 1% better every day and in 100 days you will be 100% better!
Why do you believe you are a bad person?
because I feel like I am. Many times I think I am in sin, and that I am not a good person, brother, son. I keep believing ocd telling me I dont deserve nothing good
@Heello That’s not the way to do it. There’s other ways to relieve stress and anxiety. I’m sure you’re not a bad person. I’ve been there and it’s very difficult to deal with. There is a way out.
Please don't it is not worth it
i'm tired of the fear of becoming something horrible. im tired of feeling like i'm an irredeemable monster. im tired of thinking about what happened every hour of my life. im tired of the fear of being a bad person. im tired of never feeling like i deserve anything. i'm tired of the ruminating, the anguish, the guilt, the regret, the pain, the anger at myself. i dont know what i want. it feels as if making my life better will be like excusing my actions. i feel like i deserve this pain. my genuine emotions feel like a facade. im so scared. i dont want to be a bad person. why did i think it was okay in the moment. why.
I don’t really know what to do anymore I feel bad all the time and when I take my medicine I feel bad for not feeling bad all these memories are on repeat in my head and it doesn’t stop. I’m convinced i’m the worst person ever and I deserve everything bad that happens to me and I think I do. I did things that are actually bad and I don’t know how to fix them and the guilt eats away at me i feel like i’m living a lie and hiding my dirty secrets from everyone. It’s like how could I have not realized these things were wrong. I feel disgusted with myself and I don’t know what to do
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