Just found out a guy I was seeing for around two months and I really liked and was convinced he was in love with me was also seeing another girl at the same time as me (he had convinced me he wanted to be in a relationship with me, taking about future plans, even asking me about my ocd because he wanted to be educated on it to help me). Im kind of friends with the other girl and she told me she wanted nothing to do with him. I tried to present myself as not caring to him and aired his messages. Today I find out he was messaging her all day apologist saying he wants to be with her. I feel horrible. No guys ever want a relationship with me, and I always have my guard up because I’m scared of getting hurt. The one time I let it down I do get hurt. I just want to run away, all my friends are so happy and I’m so sad and being left behind.