A little bit of erp goes a long way 🤗

Could use a little help.I went out after a long time today and it felt like i was naturally noticing the same sex like i did earlier with the the opposite and barely noticing or feeling anything for the opposite but feeling weird when noticing the same. like it felt like thats me and i am noticing it and I wasn't anxious or nervous but thinking of the possibilities of both the sex's it's actually come to a point where nothing seems impossible anymore and i am so close to losing it all i am not anxious not scared nothing i am noticing thinking stuff…. and then if I don't do a compulsion i am fine but that would mean its not ocd but all this while was denial so i get scared and force myself to do the compulsion cause its easier for it to be ocd and i know how ocd works so thats how i do it.. but that would also mean i am faking it and its not ocd right what do i do?!? This is insane it doesn't stop all the feelings feel so real like it doesn't feel intrusive what even is intrusive anymore if i notice and don't obsess over it its not even ocd thenwhat do i do?!? Is this even ocd?!? Feels to real to be… what do i do pls help me…