On days where I’m feeling plagued with intrusive thoughts and a little down, I can find myself wondering “why can’t you pick yourself up, why don’t you feel like you did yesterday, have you learned nothing in recovery, why aren’t you applying the tools you’ve learned…?” And days where I feel positive and less plagued by my OCD, I can find myself wondering “this doesn’t hurt like it used to, is this bad, do you even have OCD, why am I even doing recovery I feel great, why did I feel so bad last week…?” Recovery is just NOT a linear thing. And that’s okay. OCD is sneaky and can even try to disrupt good days in recovery. Thinking of everyone in recovery today and hoping that they will be strong!

Took the words right out of my mouth!

I try to be mindful of how I feel when I feel good. For instance my mind races and causes me anxiety for a week or two…..then it’s quiet 🤫 I don’t feel that bad. Why is that? Everything is the same around me nothings changed. So I try to be mindful of that feeling knowing I will be there again. Sometimes I think I should record my self on a good day talking to myself

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Oof, this is me this past week. Mix of highs and lows. Today is a low and was asking the same questions. Not a straight line.

Remember that those thoughts are compulsions for you. I didn't realize that until my therapist told me. I was like well hot dog, I'm a hot mess express but knowing that cycle is helping me be a warm mess express hahaha.