What do you do when you just can’t take it anymore? Triggers are everywhere!

Idk anymore it feels like being on here is a trigger. Every time I see a minor post on the app, my intrusive thoughts go haywire and then my brain says maybe you should comment something inappropriate and i literally don't wanna fucking do that. It's the last thing I want to do. And now im scared that I commented something crude on someone's post. obviously, when I went to check there was nothing now my brain is saying "you commented and then deleted". I want to think it's something I wouldn't do, but why are the images in my head so real. Children should be safe. I feel like I need to be locked away. Someone please help me.

I’m having hitman ocd thoughts and I feel like I’m gunna google how to hire a hitman UGH so it feels like I’m gunna type that and I can’t use google so as erp I’m using google but this is fucked

It’s one thing to have intrusive thoughts. It’s a deeper level of hell when the universe or outside world glitches daily and the most unlikely impossible scenarios happen daily. For example: you walk outside your house every single day at different times and every time you walk outside you see your trigger theme like cancer for example. Everyday you walk outside Nomatter what time it is you see a sick person, or a person with a shirt of cancer, or a vehicle with a cancer word on it. This is a different level of hell in ocd, it’s like the universe is conspiring against you on a daily basis to keep you trapped in fear. Then you begin looking for a trigger free day just to break free, and it never arrives. It just gets worse and worse. The universe literaly glitches and you see triggers in the most crazy ways to trigger you. What would you do then? Nothing helps. One thing is to have intrusive thoughts and triggers, but when you get to a level of ocd when the outside world glitches In order for you to see what you fear every single day, then what? Help is welcomed, where are the experts at? Never have I heard anyone with OCD deal with the universe glitching like this.