Hello, im really anxious right now, for years I have had the fear to Go crazy and jump out of the window, is awful, I live in low places but now im in vacation and in a 9th floor. Im anxious all the nights to jump on my sleep or at any time, thoughts come like, "you should do it now and stop suffering" and right after that its, just chill deep down you now you will be fine you have been feeling this fear for years and nothing happens, but u hate this feeling of fear.

Hello!! You’re not alone i used to get the same intrusive thoughts even about my loved ones. but just remember the fact that you’re fighting against this thought shows and proves that you are against this. the idea of it scares you and the process that people go through to want to do such act isn’t what you’re thinking! studies show people with these thoughts are usually the most calm nice people! even a therapist says this in a book! it’s okay to be anxious it won’t happen i can promise you that 100% take a deep breath realize each time you’ve gotten such thought it always disappears eventually and never happens what i recommend is breathing in 4 seconds holding 7 out 8 and letting the thought pass because fighting it won’t do anything but keeping it in ur head here for you

Hello, this means the World to me! Reading this message has filled me with a nice feeling of calm and support! Thank you so much. I really appreciate you took the time! I feel so much better and I'll do the breathing.

No probs yes def do the breathing ?

oh yeah i totally understand that. i used to have a hard time being close to the edge of train platforms when i took the train to school everyday. i got rid of that fear by just going really close and jokingly thinking “oh yeah im totally gonna kill myself” and away it was.

but really, try the “joke” thoughts

I totally will. You've helped a ton. Thank you

You aren’t alone in this! I know avoidance doesn’t do any good in the long term, but at the same time you want to enjoy your vacation. Maybe you could ask the hotel if you could move to a room on the ground floor? If you’re feeling up to erp you could try a floor lower than where you are but not the ground floor. Either way, I know you can do this and we’re here to back you up ❤️

This support means a lot to me, sadly Im on my Grandpa's place and can't change floors, but I guess tomorrow I'll talk to my family for extra support. I tend to suffer in silence this things. Thank you so much for your words, this means a lot to me, this helps this feeling and fear Go away easier!

I get these thoughts too and they are frightening and really annoying - you aren’t alone

I'll open the balcony tonight! Its a new day and im alive! It weird that my OCD triggers at night

they just kind of suck the seriousness out of the fear, and makes it seem a little silly. yoy know, just in your head you can go “yeah yeah, sure i’ll jump off. life sucks and im gonna end it” in a mockinh tone. helped me immensely

have you read about suicidal ocd? (and no, not as in being suicidal)

Hey @annabanana I have read about this a little and I know it is what happens to me, my compulsion is avoid high places and trust me I have done crazy things to do so. I also always feel scared when a Go to a high place with balcony. But knowing it is not enough when the fear gets me it gets me and is very powerful, :(

@laurlpn thank you so much