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Your not crazy:) I am 13 and I know how you feel. I get sexual images of family,friends,animals,and even objects. And awhile back my sister had an episode and cut herself infront of me. Then I started getting thoughts saying āwhat if you loose your mind and cut yourself.and I got to where I didnāt wanan be around knifes and I tried to hide the knife hoping I would forget where they are.and I would get scary images like for example me hanging my self.even tho I donāt wanna die. My sister is ok btw. Just keep your head up. Stay strong for your little one! Keep your head up.and ingnore those thoughts.bc you know you wouldnāt do that:) If you ever get to where you feel like you wanna donāt!bc you got this and itās not worth it!You have a little one that needs you!Leep your head up god loves you!:)
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*keep
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Oh yea and when you said you donāt like being barefoot.I can kinda relate I wash my hands so much they bleed.
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Hi!! My names Calista R. Woodbury-Rabon. I recently got married in March of this year. And have been struggling with my severe anxiety disorder since I left my toxic 3 year relationship about a year ago. Over the past several months, I have noticed that I go through phases where: I have a full body āanxiety attackā. Or at least thatās what I call it. For example : when we went to cookout and they told us they were out of the chili for walking tacos. I had a full blown anxiety attack or at least what I thought was an anxiety attack and starting hyperventilating and crying. Therefore, the only solution (in my mind) was that I wouldnāt be able to calm down until I had the walking tacos. Another example : My husband bought me a pajama set that was only recently put out because it was a patriotic item which means that after the summer itād be gone⦠I ended up picking up the wrong size. So that night when I went to put on the Pajamas and realized they were too small I started hyperventilating and crying. All because these $17 pajamas did not fit me and it was no fault of my own. Whenever this happens, I usually end up spiraling and crying and saying a lot at once very quickly. And I usually look crazy and donāt make a lot of sense. Usually after the spiraling is over with Iām very exhausted and usually will cry myself to sleep. My husband more often than not will say stuff like āitās not that big of a deal you can get something else.ā << when it has to do with food etc. OR āwe can just buy another set of pjamas the next time I get paid.ā << in relation to the pajamas in this instance. But honestly no matter what him or anyone else tells me in that moment. All that matters is that I can feel the anxiety in my bones. And I canāt breathe and in that moment my world as I know it has ended. Iāve tried taking online free āquizzesā to find out if I acctually have OCD and theyāve been negative. I also did some research and learned that you can have all the symptoms for a OCD āflare-upā but present no active case of OCD or symptoms. So I guess what Iām trying to find out is if I donāt have āOCDā than Is this out of body experience caused from my āsevere anxiety disorderā diagnosis ? Or just anxiety in general?? Thank you for taking the time to read this even if you also arenāt sure!! Means a lot to me..ā¤ļøāš©¹
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Hey, so idk if I have ocd, I would like to think Iām a very self aware person but I donāt wanna self diagnose at all, lmk what you guys think. So pretty much my whole life since I was young I remember having irrational fears im sure it was all trauma induced but when I was a kid I thought my father was poisoning me until I asked him, he started crying and was so shocked that I could ever even think that, my parents broke up when I was legit fresh out the womb, mom worked two jobs and disciplined me, dad let me do whatever on the weekends and got me snacks so I was obsessed with him so obsessed that it was mandatory for me to kiss his picture 20x everyday before school. Growing up I always felt followed by cameras or like someone out there was recording me waiting for me to do something embarrassing to expose me in front of the whole world and my life was over š¤£š¤£ I thought my abusive ex bf was stalking me through my I phone camera after we broke up and it would truly stress me out, it made me believe that it was the reason he never reached out again bc I probably looked ugly in the camera he was stalking me through. If I fall out with a friend Ill over analyze everything to see if I did anything wrong and god forbid while Iām self reflecting I realize I did something wrong I feel like an evil person, verbatim the people I fall out with is bc theyāve done me wrong in some way and it has to b something hurtful or repeated mistakes for me to really stay away for good, so Iāll beat myself up for making mistakes with another person whoās made the same amount of mistakes if not more and in most cases I always fall short, and this when I question if itās ocd or Iām just to self aware and see the ugly in me bc Iām not perfect and itās just makes me feel so unsettled but again thatās a normal feeling and the next step is to forgive yourself and do better moving forward, not obsess over it like your trying to convince yourself youāre a good person. Iām also hot tempered and will say hurtful things when Iām mad Iām definitely a crash out in the way, you push my bottoms way too many times and I will shred you, and Iāll say things ik will hurt you and thatās just so low, then the anger goes away and I have to face the guilt, which makes my āocdā 100x worse, it almost feels like I have to do everything right to not trigger it yet again I donāt have the self control to do it all right, I actually have a lot bpd tendencies again not diagnosing but Iām just trying to understand my brain. I worry about dying, getting a terminal illness. uti turning into kidney infection then into cancer kind of thing, knowing that life in general can b tragic is so scary to me, like what will be my story? What will be my life experience?. I believe that people see right through me and discuss it amongst each other, I always tell myself I am not that important but I canāt seem to shake it off sometimes. When I would break up with my ex I would have pre written paragraphs ready to b send if he ever decided to reach back and I would do this to make sure I didnāt forget a single thought, that every point i felt I need to prove was there, and that bothers me bc do I want win an argument or fix the issue. All of these feelings make me feel so pathetic and embarrassed people move on with their lives and Iām still stuck on something that happened 3 yrs ago. Then Iāll get manic get a tattoo, change my hair, go out clubbing do what I can to b the sexy young girl that I am and it helps in the moment but it worsens my mental after the euphoria is gone. Iām currently staying home, not going out, have only 1 friend so I feel like ocd progressively got worse now, I donāt remember it getting this bad in a while. lmk what you guys think donāt judge or think Iām embarrassing Iām actually so cool and if have to convince you Iām cool I will LMFAOO no but fr help
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Hello, Iām new to this app. Iāve always had an anxious brain, and Iāve had coping mechanisms for as long as I can remember. When I was a kid, from as early as I could spell, until I was probably early teens, I would constantly write words in my head along to the beat of music. Itās such a vivid memory because I never stopped doing it. The word had to perfectly match up to the lyric and I loved that it kept my brain busy. I grew out of that, but felt like good context. My anxiety increased drastically around ages 17-19, and I began therapy. I was diagnosed with generalized anxiety and panic disorder, due to having a panic attack nearly every day at that time. I overcame that as well, and now the panic attacks are every now and then, but the anxiety is constant, and some recent symptoms have led me to believe I might have some form of OCD. Maybe not. Iām trying to understand myself and get better so I joined this app to make sense of things. Lately Iāve been having really intense intrusive thoughts. Iām really embarassed and they make me feel like a bad person. Thoughts pop in my head seemingly out of nowhere. It will be an image of me harming myself or someone else in a really bad way. (Trigger warning) for example the other day I couldnāt shake the image of me putting a knife through my own forehead, although itās not something I want to do. Or Iāll imagine someone killing me. I imagine my loved ones dying often. The thoughts feel so out of my control itās insane. I hate them. Another persistent issue that isnāt as new is replaying social scenarios. Iām a hairstylist so this one is difficult since I meet a bunch of new people every day. I obsess over how I act and if people like me. I will impulsively say things all the time and they will haunt me for weeks. I question even my closest friends and family who show their love. I find myself so angry and numb and like I have so much built up emotion and a busy mind always. While doing my job I spiral really badly if any little thing goes wrong and itās embarassing. I know thereās more but I canāt think of it now. I just want to feel better and like Iām not constantly battling my mind.
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