Does anyone else experience something similar? So I don’t know how long I’ve had ocd but the earliest I can remember it really is november 2020 I think, it may have been before that but I’m not sure. In November 2020 I watched a movie that was trending on tik tok called Megan is missing (it’s hard for me to even type that) and it affected me a lot. I was 13 nearly 14 when I watched it. And I was already sensitive to some of the things in it like the r word cause I’m 2019 I watched 13 reasons why ( I never even used to be able to say or type that) when I was 12 after my cousin mentioned it and I watched it out of curiosity. It’s weird because with 13rw it had me upset for so so long but at the same time I had this sort of attachment to Hannah and I liked the show but at the same time it was obviously SO SO sad and triggering. The suicide scene got removed about a week after I watched it so I did see that aswell. But my obsession with titanic took my mind off it mostly but I’m always thinking about Hannah a lot and she’s drifting back in a lot. Like it’s fine cause she doesn’t scare me like it does when I get intrusive thoughts about Megan is missing because that scares me a lot. Obviously some of the things that happened to Hannah are very scary but when I think of her or 13 I don’t get scared I just get sad. But my thoughts keep telling me that I’ll end up doing what Hannah did in the future, but Hannah does have a place in my heart cause I know she’s fictional and everything and she brought me lots of sadness but she brought me happiness in her happy scenes and she’s just special to me cause I’ve “known” her for nearly 3 years now and I also get very nostalgic when I think about the first time I watched it. Anyway, I only told someone I watched these things about a month ago. (A couple of friends knew I watched 13 but yeah) I was just getting so many intrusive images of Megan is missing and I needed to tell someone so I told one of the teachers I trust and they phoned my mum. The teachers are thinking this is what cause my ocd maybe because no one in my family has it and it can be caused by a traumatic experience or something. They said it’s good because I at least have a possible reason and I think that but at the same time I don’t want it to be the reason because if it is then that means I’ve been going through this pain because of something I watched in 2020. I only told someone about my ocd in march 2021. I remember it was the 18th march and I just needed to tell someone because thinking about it now I can’t believe I kept it to myself for that long because of obviously all the rituals I was constantly doing and the horrible thoughts etc. i didn’t really understand what was happening at first. But I just don’t have motivation to do anything anymore and I just can’t be arsed. And the trigger words are always in my head and it says it will happen to me, because it can literally happen to anyone so easily. I know no one has probably read this far and I don’t blame you but has anyone else had a similar experience?