garden
- Date posted
- 3y
BigGyro09BigGyro09
- Date posted
- 3y
Whatever it is you tell OCD that you want out of reassurance it isn't gonna help in the long run. The thing about though is they just happen and we're hyper aware of them in this state. Just because we are though, doesn't mean they have more importance. It's really hard to look at thoughts like that and go "oh, well there's an irrelevant though" but with practice of not responding, it diminishes. This sounds like something you've been bothered with by a while. Take that, and think about what can be done differently that would help since posting about it doesn't long term. I hope that helps
garden garden
- Date posted
- 3y
you’re right and i know posting won’t help. i guess i just feel stuck with fear and need to do something like that in the moment to help. it’s definitely a compulsion
BigGyro09BigGyro09
- Date posted
- 3y
@garden Yeah absolutely. And that's okay. As long as you see the it's a compulsion that's a great start. This is really hard to break out of because you truthfully don't want something like that to even be a small possibility. It shows the true character you have, but the compulsion of that doesn't help it in the long run. What sucks if you have to do the opposite of that to get around it.
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 3y
I’m glad you feel like you’ve taken a step for yourself.
garden garden
- Date posted
- 3y
but i’m scared it’s accepting ‘the truth’!
BigGyro09BigGyro09
- Date posted
- 3y
@garden Not necessarily accepting that it would 100% happen, but rather you're accepting the 0.02% chance that it could be a possibility, but you leave it as is. What won't work for anyone that has this doubting disorder is making sure that the possibility won't come true, which is honestly something I have trouble with doing still, after 2 years of dealing with this. You have to look at it as "Oh, this could happen potentially, but so what?" I know that's almost impossible because when we have something like this we subconsciously seek that 100% confirmation diligently. And that's what makes this so frustrating.
garden garden
- Date posted
- 3y
@BigGip09 the thing is, when i told myself it could happen and so what, i actually felt better and not scared anymore :(
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 3y
@garden Have you tried ERP?
BigGyro09BigGyro09
- Date posted
- 3y
@garden Good! It worked! That's what we want more of. That's hard, I know, but if you can take time to practice that, you can get better. :) We're sorry that you have to go through something like this on such a level, but it can be fixed!
garden garden
- Date posted
- 3y
@BigGip09 thank you it means a lot that you’re trying to help. i suppose i just always thought erp was meant to be scary, but accepting the worst case scenario brought be some peace. which made it not feel like ocd i guess.
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 3y
I still have a lot to learn about OCD, but from what I know, making you doubt “the truth” about yourself is a big thing that happens with this disorder! You are *so*not alone in this! I hope you can try not to let that thought hold you back!
garden garden
- Date posted
- 3y
thank you ❤️
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