i have an incest fear with my uncle and it’s been on and off. then today i just said to myself ‘okay, maybe you did find that thing he did attractive, but that’s okay and it’s not the end of the world. you guys aren’t even that close and it’s not like he’s one of your brothers’. i felt better after that but i’m scared it’s because i’ve accepted something i was repressing.

you’re right and i know posting won’t help. i guess i just feel stuck with fear and need to do something like that in the moment to help. it’s definitely a compulsion

@garden Yeah absolutely. And that's okay. As long as you see the it's a compulsion that's a great start. This is really hard to break out of because you truthfully don't want something like that to even be a small possibility. It shows the true character you have, but the compulsion of that doesn't help it in the long run. What sucks if you have to do the opposite of that to get around it.

but i’m scared it’s accepting ‘the truth’!

@garden Not necessarily accepting that it would 100% happen, but rather you're accepting the 0.02% chance that it could be a possibility, but you leave it as is. What won't work for anyone that has this doubting disorder is making sure that the possibility won't come true, which is honestly something I have trouble with doing still, after 2 years of dealing with this. You have to look at it as "Oh, this could happen potentially, but so what?" I know that's almost impossible because when we have something like this we subconsciously seek that 100% confirmation diligently. And that's what makes this so frustrating.

@BigGip09 the thing is, when i told myself it could happen and so what, i actually felt better and not scared anymore :(

@garden Have you tried ERP?

@garden Good! It worked! That's what we want more of. That's hard, I know, but if you can take time to practice that, you can get better. :) We're sorry that you have to go through something like this on such a level, but it can be fixed!

@BigGip09 thank you it means a lot that you’re trying to help. i suppose i just always thought erp was meant to be scary, but accepting the worst case scenario brought be some peace. which made it not feel like ocd i guess.

thank you ❤️