my hocd is unique because i know i’m bisexual but i obsess over: how bisexual am i? was i always this bisexual or is it the ocd? is every attraction i feel to anyone fake? it sucks and i feel pretty alone in it

THIS IS ME TO A FREAKIN T GIRL!!! I don’t know where I fall on the spectrum (which is part of my obsession) I’m probably a 1 or 2 on the Kinsey scale, but I have embraced a very nuanced view of sexuality dealing with this type of OCD. Which honestly makes it even worse when my OCD takes over. I’m like...am I even Bi? Or is that OCD & I’m just straight? Or what if my attraction to men is fake? What is real? How can I trust any of it? Girl, it SUCKKKKSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS. I love my boyfriend & he is completely fine with me being bi, but then I think...what if it’s just OCD? Then the googling, my god, I can go a full day stuck googling what it means to be Bi compared to full out lesbian. Then I’ll find stories where Bi girls go to fully gay. It makes my anxiety insane & makes me obsess so much. Sexuality isn’t as straight forward as we think, which gives OCD the perfect environment to feed.

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There are people who feel the same way as you - you are never alone! Keep staying strong ??

You’ll be okay! Trust me any lgbt or straight person with this feels the same like the other person said. You’ll get your attractions back to men and women trust me

Girl I understand I am not bisexual that I know of lol but the constant googling is really what brings on a lot of suffering. especially when you read articles about this that and the other and you compare that article your life and looking at statistics ugh forget about it. just know that their are people who understand how difficult it is and never give up:)