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- 3y
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- 3y
I know!!!! It's like grieving. It's so hard!
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- 3y
Grieving over someone who’s here but isn’t . 🥺this sucks !
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- 3y
I constantly check his Instagram page all the time . I guess it’s because I’m hurt by the feeling of missing him . But as well, I am hurt by seeing of what I don’t have that he does . If that makes sense ? He’s always doing things all traveling and meeting his idol and going to concerts . I was originally supposed to attend one with him . We had planned our trip , but as of now , we no longer speak to each other because we are no longer friends.
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- 3y
Does he know you like him
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- 3y
No . There have honestly been days where I’ve contemplated coming forward to him about it . But I feel what is the point? I am low self confident due to my low self esteem. Most importantly , we’re no longer speaking🤷♂️
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- 3y
I am trying my hardest ! But it’s so hard when I feel tempted to check his insta but yet I feel anxious doing it because I’m scared I’ll see he’s found someone . Just mainly because I miss him and looking back hurts .
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- 3y
Why aren't you friends anymore?
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- 3y
We started off as fwbs - and became bit close and bonded . We just had our ups and downs in friendship - I felt there was lack of communication , with him at least . He was sincere at one time where he said why he ignored me for a bit . It wasn’t even ignoring - he was just lil distant for bit , but overall we had always been talking on regular basis . I felt I screwed shir over and gas lighted because of my dumb way of handling stressful situations . So I took it upon myself to block him and it wasn’t first time . He had the idea that this would become a habit for me I think and that’s why he stopped talking ever since . I dmed him a while after , weeks later- I confronted him about a rumor went on he had been talking shit about me and a friend . But turns out , it was all a lie and none of it was true. Even when I tried coming forward about that he was ignoring me regardless ...a week later he replied to my dm . He basically said leave me alone and had asked for me to stop . I was hurt because I knew that I wanted to keep talking ...anwyays , I tried explaining that basically it was confrontation , but it was all false rumors . He responded with its okay whatever just good luck with ur future relationships after all of this . I obviously took that offensive and gaslighted the whole situation by telling him off and pulling same shit by blocking him. Ever since we haven’t spoken at all. It’s been 3 months counting last time speaking as friends & 1 momth ever since speaking to each other at all. I genuinely blame myself and do think it’s my fault . I want to reconcile our friendship but not sure he’ll want the same . I miss him so much .
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- 3y
Regardless if whether we become friends again or not , I am a nervous wreck of coming forward about my feelings for him . As my post already explains everything - I have low confidence and have low self esteem because of it . I would totally be dying in the inside during our friendship .
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- 21w
my ocd and anxiety has been so bad a couple of days… so i started liking this guy that i am friends with and we also went to prom together… after prom, i caught feelings for him even more because he’s so respectful and nice… but he is also a boy that acts like one… but overall he’s rlly sweet.. the other day though since we go to the same school we were in the parking lot after school with our friends just talking and socializing… but once he was leaving i went to go give him a hug and hugged me… my other guy friend was with us who’s also friends with him and hugged him too and whispered in his ear and said “yo u and sav would be a good couple” and he nodded saying “yes” (my guy friend told me that) so eventually i told him saying “yeah i like him” blah blah but there is a problem that bothers me so badly… my friend likes him… i didn’t tell her for a while until i think my OCD was just bothering me sm if i didn’t tell her so i told her how i felt and i was just saying like “i don’t want this to ruin our friendship or anything but i have feelings for him…” yada yada… she was like “i understand but if i’m honest with u if u ask him out i will be upset” i’m just like i wasn’t planning to rlly i can’t tell if he rlly likes me anyways but i didn’t say that… i said “i’m just telling u how i feel” and she goes “i mean i would see u guys anyways because u guys are closer” then she says “can i ask u something and a non rude way” and i was like sure…. she goes “since i’m the first person that liked him can i give it a try if it doesn’t work that’s that” and i was like girl idk it’s Gods plan if it doesn’t work it doesn’t if it does it does” and i’m saying that in the most mature and respectful way yk? because i am christian i’ve been praying about it also. so we were good after that but my anxiety and OCD has been so horrible… i’m uncomfortable around them because she flirts with him but i don’t and she did it on ft when i fell asleep on ft and my best friend was on there and had to hear it….she told me that he does it back she just can’t tell if he’s joking or not… but i’m so overwhelmed about it i’m having thoughts like “what if u and him stop being friends” … “what if something bad happens” …. “what if ur not confident in yourself enough where he won’t like you” …. “what if this is a love triangle” i’m just so sick of this and i don’t wanna be so distraught over a stupid boy because i’ve been through sm with my past talking stage thinking it will work but now im like rlly cauious over being in a relationship now…
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- 20w
I’ve posted this under a comment before, but if anyone has the time to read it and maybe share their experience or tips with me, I would really appreciate it. This is just kind of the reason why Idk if I only have OCD or if I should get checked for BPD aswell as emotional dependency is (as far as I know) not a common symptom of OCD and neither are excessive changes in emotions/moods. I think the worst part my situation is that one of my biggest and most damaging if not destructive obsessions I developed earlier this year was this constant fear that my friend would lie to me about meeting up with a boy she liked (we are both girls and queer, she didn’t know that about me until recently, but I’ve known that she is and we both sort of crushed on each other). Not just lie, but do it behind my back, keep it a secret, and then maybe even end our friendship without saying anything. And the thing is... that basically happened. Two weeks ago she started acting strange one day out of nowhere, and then I found out (through another friend) that he was coming over to her place. We had already talked about this before, I had cried in front of her and confessed how much it hurt me. I know doing that probably wasn’t the healthiest thing, but my emotions completely overwhelmed me in that moment. And even though nothing physical happened between them, it still felt like a betrayal. I’m not saying it was cheating, obviously not, we’re not in a relationship and it is unfair of me to try and tell her who or not to date, but it still hurts. Especially as weeks ago, we already had a detailed conversation about this. She told me she didn’t actually like him that much, and that if they were going to meet again, she’d be honest with me about it. But instead of being honest that day, she said nothing. Worse, she suddenly stopped talking to me, which made me think I had done something wrong so I completely lost my mind. She knows I’m emotionally dependent on her to some extent, so when she goes cold or distant, I spiral. And that day, I saw them talking and going quiet as I walked by, and then she literally turned to walk into a different direction. I don’t know why but it just crushed me. I thought she was mad at me, and I just felt like I was being shut out and lied to. And as I’ve mentioned, later that day, after eight hours of crying, another friend told me what really happened. She even drove me to her place so we could talk. We did talk, but since then, we haven’t had any contact. And it’s driving me absolutely insane. She told me it would be “people-pleasing” if she didn’t try to date him. And I know she’s kind of right, but she still lied to me. She didn’t care if that meant that she would throw away our friendship, or at least she treated it like it was worth less than a potential (!) relationship with a guy who, as far as I know, didn’t even respond when she told him she had feelings for him. It’s honestly devastating. I feel betrayed, discarded, and totally lost and I know I can’t even logically be mad at her as the reason she didn’t tell me is obvious and as a good friend I should just be happy for her, but my emotional side is so much stronger than my logic.
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- Date posted
- 16w
My partner broke up with my about 10 months ago. It came out of nowhere, and I got no explanation before they ghosted me and blocked me on all forms of contact. I have been horribly struggling since then with this obsessive need for closure. For a while I continued to try to reach out to them, on my own accord or through other people, but it just kept ending with more blocking. For months, I was going through the relationship and the breakup in my head over and over, picking it apart to try and figure out what went wrong, but without a conversation with my ex, I couldn't get anywhere. I am definitely doing much better now. the compulsions to reach out to her and the spiral obsession with figuring out what went wrong have both lessened. but they are still present, especially when I sleep. I really just want to be rid of the whole situation, but i want to do it in a healthy way without locking up my feelings. i really am at such a loss though. i still want answers and i still miss my ex in a lot of ways, but at the same time, the though of running into them scares the shit out of me. ive heard some horrible things about them since then, and how they have been spreading rumors about me behind my back. the situation cant seem to get any worse and it just keep happening. and it makes my ocd triggers so much worse too. idk, i will take literally any responses and any helpful advice.
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