i don’t know where to get an honest opinion on my real event. should i be allowed to move on? make friends? i feel like a fraud.

Do you want to talk about it? I’m in exactly the same boat. Ive tried almost every online forum out there (please don’t the people are horrible) and asked almost everyone in my life. I too feel like I can’t move on!! It’s honestly the worst form ocd can take I swear

Is the real event the problem? Or is the OCD interpretation of the event the problem? Also, even if you were to get an honest opinion of your real event, would OCD accept this, or continue to doubt it? The best way to handle Real Event OCD is to accept uncertainty and practice ERP. An imaginal exposure script is a common form of ERP therapy for real events OCD. This is where you take one of the fears driving your obsessive thoughts and play it out to the worst possible end. As you can imagine, using imaginal exposure scripts can be uncomfortable because it requires unfolding hypothetical scenarios your mind has labeled the worst possible thing that can happen. However, the idea behind ERP is to habituate yourself to these fearful thoughts so that they will loosen their grip on you. Eventually you’ll get to a point where you are relatively comfortable with the uncertainty of these past actions, and the obsessive thoughts will reside. If you don't feel comfortable doing ERP by yourself, I recommend doing it with a trained ERP-therapist. I've dealt with real event ocd and I can say it does work! It might also be helpful to check out NOCD's support groups just to know you're not alone. https://www.treatmyocd.com/support-groups How to Accept Uncertainty with OCD https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qhKmY1IeFf8&t=137s How do I deal with guilt or doubt over a memory? with Dr. McGrath, Davida Vaughn & Dr. Solarin https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_EEriK-0VGk&t=178s What Is Real Event OCD? https://www.treatmyocd.com/blog/real-events-ocd