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I know it is hard dealing with parents. My family I'd horrible. I arrived to the conclusion, that I can't share with them my problems anymore. Every time we end up fighting, with them judging me, or telling stupid things like "just stop thinking". And my mother will use everything that hurt me to hurt me more later, when she does something wrong. One day I didn't listed to her about bed time; (I was 16; I mean...) and the next day my first bf broke up with me. I was destroyed and I told her... al she replied was "he did the best thing he could, you don't deserve to have someone, it's obvious that he left you" just because I didn't listen to her the previous day... So yes. Now I know that I have some cousins/ good friends that can really understand me and support me, but that's it! I understand that some people will be very understand, so the more you try; the more you will get disappointed and sad.
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I have also decided to no longer try and stress myself out when explaining to them aboht my mental state . Simply, there’s no other way to try & get them to undertand me . I have accepted that. And I will do my best to better myself even if I Habe no support from family . I have you guys and friends , all I need 💕
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@Brian :) Also i am sorry that happened to you. Wishing you best 💕and I am here if need someone to talk to.
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And now when I think of the thought it feels real and because in that moment of time wheen she said something - ocd convinces me my thoughts are me and almost like I have to act on them . It feels real and l just want myself back. I know what I am dealing with. I been thru this over and over . I want it to stop 💔
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Yep, I feel the same way. I don’t get as much anxiety anymore, so it’s definitely a struggle for me because I feel that I constantly need to say no to these thoughts and try to replace & push away them.
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@Peter ! This
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I’ve gone this numerous times beginning with my mom many years ago & recently with my partner. I understand. Ultimately it’s up to us to be able to cope with those things too. It’s hard after you’ve explained BUT don’t wait for them to do something to feel better that’s an ocd trick! I believe you may need to feel through your feelings & focus on removing needing anything for comfort compulsively. Her getting upset makes you feel bad which starts the ocd up & needing her to understand could be ocd keeping you from coping with the guilt or doubts that are relevant to her talking about your room. I truly understand this 1st hand you aren’t alone. 🧡
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Thank you!
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- 25w
Often times I find myself spiraling out in the morning about all sorts of things. When I try and catch myself and figure out what I am obsessing over it’s like it goes away. I haven’t moved. I have been sitting frozen on the floor because I can’t go to work because I am behind on work and I hate being late and I hate being messy but I am frequently late and my room is cluttered and full of stuff. I want to be good and move and go to work but I don’t know what is coming today and I hate my job so I know I will get bored and when I have nothing to keep me busy and engaged I like start thinking and taking an inventory of what is going on and then I will feel a sensation and what is the sensation? How did it happen? And I know that I will pick up the bad emotions in the office and get contaminated, I was really worried about things like this as a kid too I cried because I had to touch dirt in kindergarten. I know I am this way and I have been this way for a while but at the same time I think I might just be normal and like I don’t know why I get stuck in thinking like this. Then I begin to doubt that OCD is real because everyone has a brain with wiring and everyone gets stuck in thought sometimes. I feel disabled from whatever this is because I am stuck. I literally cannot move because I don’t know what’s wrong and I know I have to go to work even though I feel like every moment I spend there is making everything worse because other people are so stressed and I get it from them. And I don’t feel ready because I just feel off and something is wrong and I just don’t know what to do because if it’s OCD or not OCD everything anyone knows about me is coming from me and I worry that I am often masking all the thinking I’m doing because thinking all the time is rude and inconsiderate and inconvenient for those around me, but I can’t stop. I just don’t feel right, right now - and I want to know WHY?? Why is everything off all the time? How do I even know that I am not making up the experience of OCD in my head to cover up something really wrong with me and now I am taking on the symptoms of OCD like an actress, because this could be something that I can latch onto as a final hope for explaining why I am stuck. So stuck so deeply and terribly stuck sitting on my floor next to my bed just scrolling to avoid thinking because any time I start thinking I am left with no answers or help or anything just this swirly feeling. I know I am trying, maybe not my best, but as much as I possibly can. I want to be a Special Education Teacher but I have so much so so so much doubt and uncertainty about every decision I make and everything I know that I can’t get there right now. I can’t do anything right now until it feels ok and then I will. It never feels ok. I know I have to be ok not feeling ok about it. I can be unsure and still be ok. I know it’s just my thinking and my body but I just can’t get past this feeling. And then I know that because I can calm myself and be ok even though I spent 2 hours of my life today already feeling stuck and spinning around and around and around in my head - I don’t feel sure about my OCD and I think it’s a bit of a scam made up by people to cultivate pathology around deep human thought because one day I might figure it out and we all think a lot.
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I really do want to go to therapy or psychiatrist to diagnosed my OCD and give me a treatment but it costs a lot. OCD ruins my life and consumes my mind I wish I can take a break from my own brain. Having OCD but undiagnosed feels like I’m crazy because people think I made that up but they don’t know how I’m struggling since I was a kid. So anyone have an advice for treat OCD especially checking OCD that doesn’t cost money? because I don’t work yet..🥲
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Having ocd is so incredibly exhausting and depressing- my mom and dad argued with me for over an hour talking about how im a pain to be around, go in too many loops, and ruin everything and everyones mood… this conversation started with me saying im stressed out because of school and that i dont want to go because im exhausted- and idk if this is like ocd directly but it takes me like 2 hours to get ready in the morning because i need to look PERFECT and the same everyday literally 😭 and that process feels so exhausting every morning at 6am but i will NOT go to school without going through with it- i will literally be crying and shaking and wanting to go home the minute i get to school if even a single strand of my hair is not perfectly straightened or any blemishes or flaws are showing- and i cant even walk to school or anything bc im scared the humidity will mess with my hair and everything- and it just really affects my life? And yeah its freaking exhausting. And i have two more years of highschool and I dont know if im going to make it 😭i get super stressed over grades too because i need them to be extraordinary otherwise its a fail. Nothing below 95%. And thats also tiring! 😁 and my mom told me today “medication IS NOTTTT AND OPTION!!!” Like oh okay so im just cooked 😭 and therapy isnt really helping me at all- i feel like what im being told is so basic and generic and it doesn’t help me when im in a huge ocd episode- which is often… and what i hate most is like my mom says “don’t come to me with your problems after 6pm…” im sorry i cant schedule my feelings 😭 im so tired
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