Is there somewhere I can just go to for OCD THERAPY? I am so freaking exhausted . I had just came back from work due to anxiety attack. I was off to a great start through my day until my mom triggered my ocd and anxiety . We had discussed a lot on the way to work, Having to do most with my mental struggles . She pointed out that I hadn’t cleaned my room , at first it was with her judging me for having messy bed head too. I was openly , sincerely explaining to her why can’t mentally do things sometimes . I basically told her straight up to he bit open minded . Something along what she had said triggered my ocd anxiety. I have no idea why I was anxious , maybe because an intrusive thight crossed my mind as she yelled something out . Giving me false feelings leading up to my anxious mood. But ever since, I had been soo out of focus . Ruminating and just feeling like my ocd completely took over my head .

I know it is hard dealing with parents. My family I'd horrible. I arrived to the conclusion, that I can't share with them my problems anymore. Every time we end up fighting, with them judging me, or telling stupid things like "just stop thinking". And my mother will use everything that hurt me to hurt me more later, when she does something wrong. One day I didn't listed to her about bed time; (I was 16; I mean...) and the next day my first bf broke up with me. I was destroyed and I told her... al she replied was "he did the best thing he could, you don't deserve to have someone, it's obvious that he left you" just because I didn't listen to her the previous day... So yes. Now I know that I have some cousins/ good friends that can really understand me and support me, but that's it! I understand that some people will be very understand, so the more you try; the more you will get disappointed and sad.

And now when I think of the thought it feels real and because in that moment of time wheen she said something - ocd convinces me my thoughts are me and almost like I have to act on them . It feels real and l just want myself back. I know what I am dealing with. I been thru this over and over . I want it to stop 💔

I’ve gone this numerous times beginning with my mom many years ago & recently with my partner. I understand. Ultimately it’s up to us to be able to cope with those things too. It’s hard after you’ve explained BUT don’t wait for them to do something to feel better that’s an ocd trick! I believe you may need to feel through your feelings & focus on removing needing anything for comfort compulsively. Her getting upset makes you feel bad which starts the ocd up & needing her to understand could be ocd keeping you from coping with the guilt or doubts that are relevant to her talking about your room. I truly understand this 1st hand you aren’t alone. 🧡