HOCD Below i feel like my whole brain has been rewired by HOCD and pornography, its like i have two different things speaking for me in my mind deep deep down ik im straight and i could never see myself with a man but these random “fantasies” appear in my head, it makes me think i like my friends, random classmates, and gives me slight ghroinal responses. ik theres not much u can say but if theres anyone who had a longer expired then me that could give me any advice it’d be appreciated. (ive been dealing with this for about half a year).

thank u , it just feels like my ocd gets worse everyday, i always wake up and i get swarmed by these thoughts the more i do research it just makes me look for the things i had found to relief me against me and it makes me feel like im rlly not straight, it went from “ur not gay” to oh no ur “bi” its like my mind wont allow me to believe im straight

@hvn I get that! Try your best not to research things too much. It can be a compulsion to seek reassurance. Have you seen a NOCD Therapist?

@OCD_1day@aTime ✨ i havent

@OCD_1day@aTime ✨ im only 16 so i cant get an actual therapist to consistently help me

@hvn If you check with your Insurance Company to see if NOCD is in network, it could just be a copay you have to pay each time. You could then see a Therapist with a schedule that works best for you!

wdym but as a girl? sorry if i offended u

@hvn That I’m a girl haha, so it’s the opposite for me

@San2 ohh sorry that u have to go through that its rlly nice to know i have someone to relate to how long u been going through it for

@hvn Oh I’m sorry I thought I read that you were a boy so i meant that I have those thoughts too but I’m a girl

@hvn Uhmm I think like 2 months now? First I had rocd I had a boyfriend. We broke up for 4 months now and i was devastated because of it. So like 2 months ago it switched up to soocd and my rocd thoughts are less worse

@San2 u have a rocd when ur single

@San2 sorry if i offended u with my question before

@hvn Well, I had rocd thoughts in the relationship. And when we broke up (he broke up with me) my thoughts were still there and it kept me from being sad but then after a while the sadness was stronger than the thoughts and evertything came out. Now it has switched to soocd and the rocd thoughts sometimes still comes but then more as, your less sad about him now, guess I’m in to girls then. So it is horrible because deep down I know these thoughts are ridiculous and I’m just still not over my ex but these thoughts keep me from healing or someting

@hvn Oh no I don’t mind haha

@San2 its one step at a time u know just try to be patient u have plenty of time

@San2 do u have any socials i could contact u on i find ur story interesting im 15 btw if you’d like to know

@hvn Uhmm I don’t haha it triggers me. And I’m not diagnosed yet