I have had ocd for along time I had no childhood no normal high school experiences no work experiences I’ve just been trying to get better all these years and appear normal to try to have some kind of similar normal kid experiences that everyone else was haveing instead of spending hours on simple homework riteing and reriteing till I eventually had to get a tutor to help me but I was still spending hours on the homework simple homework but my ocd made me feel like I was not riteing the letters rite and going over the same letters another thing is I was spending 2 hours in the shower doing order and symmetry stuff and getting that just rite feeling so I was busy wit ocd others were being a kid and it sucks im now 29 and still haveing issues I’m on ssi and make 500 something dollars a month there’s no security in that I can’t live on my own and can’t even begin to explain the life I’ve had cause of my ocd and a couple months ago I learned bout exposure and response prevention I read ppl posts and other ppl story’s that were exactly like mine doctors and therapists don’t understand ocd and that’s who was treating all of us and I just think that should be illegal for doctors to not understand and continue to prescribe medications when do they tell the patient there’s specific ocd help out there and refer them somewere else cause I’ve never had anyone tell me that I could’ve gotten help years ago the help that I actually needed I could’ve had a different life not filled with ocd but these hospitals and doctors and therapists chose to keep me and treat me when they shouldn’t have and now I’m trying to get help and can’t cause nowere in Tennessee accepts my insurance and there’s not even any inpatient ocd places here and it’s so common for ocd sufferers to not get help cause there’s just not alot of help out there it’s crazy I can’t get help even though I’m begging for it all cause of my insurance and it’s 40000 dollars a month at an inpatient place who the fuck can afford that this is all rediculous.

I’m on ssi for my ocd I get 500 something dollars a month and my Medicaid is suppose to help me pay for doctors visits and medications and the help I need for my disability but nowere will accept my insurance and these ppl think I can just go to a regular mental hospital and se regular doctors which I thought that’s wat I was suppose to do to get better but then learned regular doctors and hospitals don’t understand ocd I’ve seen doctors that have ocd listed on things they treat same wit hospitals and places treating anxiety disorders which is wat ocd is so I’ve always gone to places that list ocd and anxiety orders they all no the jist of ocd but don’t understand everything bout it and all the different kinds of ocd and wat comes wit ocd like anxiety anxiety attacks panick attacks agoraphobia guilt shame and staying up late being depressed and everything else they just have prescribed me an antidepressant and tlk therpay which I have now learned tlk therapy can make ocd worse and it’s just not a treatment for ocd but exposure and response therpay are and anxiety medications for an anxiety disorder sounds like they’d help alot to ocd is based off of fear and uncertainty like just constant panick give me a xanex so I can chill but I trusted them for 15 years every doctor and hospital was the same prescribed the same thing just 1 magic pill they think is a cure all the same tlk therpay 15 years and no change in my ocd cause none of them were ever treating me properly but they still got paid and here I am barely maid it threw school went to an alternative school never been able to work never finding help just always different from others liveing a different life than others and wat I portrayed pretending to be normal and being on ssi I atleast want to try to get help the proper care some anxiety meds so I can leave my house atleast I want to tlk to a doctor who understands my illness it’s just crazy that ocd help isn’t out there like other mental illnesses.

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I understand that I no some ppl get home care and like inpatient care in places like ppl who are more slower that can’t take care of themselves but live on there own I’d like to have that for myself to cause atleast I’d have care and help when I need it but you gotta have insurance cover it I don’t think ppl see ocd and everything that comes wit haveing ocd as dibilitating and like me I can do alot of things they just take me longer cause of rituals I no the way to do things normal but I have ocd and can’t I’m not stupid I can leave my house and be round ppl but I have agoraphobia and social anxiety and just can’t but still it’s hard liveing like that I won’t leave my house to go grocery shopping till I’m starveing if I had help from a nurse to come help that’d be amazing especially when my ocd at it’s worst like it’s been lately if I can get help get better I can do more for myself which would make me feel better and be less depressed it’s so aggravating wanting to do all these things but just not being able to like I just want to put on my clothes like a normal person I want to put on deodorant normal and not wash my hands all the time I want to do stuff that I use to do I want to go to the store and not have to check wat brand it is to see if my ocd doesn’t like it but there’s gotta be help out there for your son like I’m home care getting help for ocd is so hard though I hope ppl can see it as dibilitating as it is so we can get more help.