I just was getting better from the last time my ocd got worse 6 years ago now it’s all happening again rite when I was getting better I bought zippered clothes bags to put my clothes in instead of the big trash bags if keep them in to keep them clean I don’t put my clothes in the closets and in drawers cause then my clean clothes wouldn’t be clean to me so I kept them in big trash bags that I could close up but then I was getting a little bit better and bought these collapsible zipper clothes bags you can stack them so i finally was able to organize my clothes in the clothes bags instead of haveing them all in a trash bag which was a huge deal to me and I was finally able to wear neosporin and exzema creams on my hands from washing them so much and cause I had mold and cats and just were I lived wasn’t the best and irritated my skin even more I was able to put the creams on and touch stuff threw out the day not panicking over if I’m transferring the contaminated cream from my hand to other objects so things were getting better less frustrating and my bf had been doing better himself and his anger he had kept his job bought him a car and a pop up camper tools and lawn stuff we had help from his sister getting to live on her land in her camper for free just pay water and electric so it just helped us alot I got my teeth pulled and dentures then shit started getting stressful again trying to deal wit my teeth and getting adjustments my doctor wasn’t being cooperative wit my healing process and I missed appointments and then we had to move cause we had been at the camper for almost a year and that’s wat we agreed upon to stay there for just a year to help us I felt like I was falling apart I just wanted time to heal from my teeth cause it takes time to heal and be able to eat it’s extremely stressful then we moved into an amazing place brand new carpet it was clean and everything was perfect it was the cheapest place in my area that this property ppl had they own alot of apartments in my area and it being the cheapest had me worried bout wat it looked like but all those worry’s stopped once we saw the place so clean balcony storage kitchen counters and cabinets huge bedroom closests nice bathroom dining room free cable included and all brand new carpet then a week into staying here they sprayed the carpets wit bug spray cause I seen a couple fleas and fleas don’t bother me your gonna see them sometimes especially if ppl have animals but they still came a sprayed I had no idea they’d sprayed majority of our carpets I had to shampoo them till 3 in the morning not eating in full panick mode crying scared upset and still to this day I feel the same way it’s been 2 months I’ve called everyone and everywere begging for help explaining my ocd and this trigger wit the carpet along wit my other ocd all I want is some relief to relax to get some rest and wake up in a better mood and live my life and be better like I was getting prior to all of this bullshit these doctors don’t understand ocd and just prescribe medications they don’t understand the anxiety and panick and other issues that come wit haveing ocd and prescribe 1 medication like it’s going to fix your panick attacks and stressing issues and your other issues by just giveing you an antidepressant and then I can’t get help from any ocd ppl cause noone accepts my insurance this is rediculous to be this miserable cause the stupidity of doctors and insurance issues something needs to change.