Cats in the dark
- Date posted
- 3y
pathpath
- Date posted
- 3y
I suggest you contacc your therapist.
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 3y
In reality, you have fear of dying so it's the exact contrary of suicidal people
Cats in the darkCats in the ...
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- 3y
Are you sure? I am so terrified right now, im so afraid of never getting better and no being able to get help if it gets worsem i want to be alive, i dont want to die, im just not able to function because of ocd
pathpath
- Date posted
- 3y
@Solaris ”Are you sure” is not relevant. I suggest you learn more about OCD. The weekly youtube sessions provided by NOCD is a good start.
BlakewithaBBlakewithaB
- Date posted
- 3y
@Solaris I know what you mean…i learned how to function with ocd in my youth but in the last few years it has become debilitating…its become clear to me that i need help, so thats why im hoping to start therapy soon…i do feel very similar to you though, but all we can do for now is seek the help that a therapist can give, never give up on trying to get better, and know that we are not alone…i wish that i could stay on longer but i gotta go eat dinner and get to bed…goodnight Solaris
AnonymousAnonymous
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- 3y
I had same fear before, watch symptoms on internet can be really trigger for people struggle with anxiety...
BlakewithaBBlakewithaB
- Date posted
- 3y
Hi Solaris, i am sorry to hear about what you are going through:( Definitely run all this by your therapist…in the meantime, know that you are not alone:)…i know that OCD can be very overwhelming, but please never give up…ive had a very difficult time myself these past few years and have suffered from a lot of what you described above…i used to regularly “deal” with things and ideas that bothered me by looking up those topics on wikipedia and putting them into context…i knew that wik was safer than searching up things on places like facebook or google (since you do not know what you will find on those platforms and can end up reading/seeing an endless amount of triggering content) but unfortunately wiki too eventually became too dangerous of a place to read about triggering topics…i had to learn this the hard way on more than one occasion until i finally understood that as much as “dealing with” certain triggering topics by exposing myself to them on wiki used to help me get rid of the anxiety, the reality was that i was doing more harm than good…this was because i not only was putting way more negative things into my head than were there in the first place (since each wiki article has links to other articles, which can make the triggering content endless), but i was also “exposing” myself to triggering content in a harmful manner since it was not being done under the guidance and supervision of an OCD therapist…i say all this because it seems that you just went through something ive experienced many times before, that is, that you started off watching one thing to learn about (or “deal with”) a difficult topic but it eventually led you to put way more into your mind than you had been prepared for…that still happens to me sometimes, but i usually try to stay off of facebook and i am very careful about what i look up on google and wikipedia…honestly, i am a very curious person so it is hard to not look up so much information like i used to do…but ive learned how important it is to protect my mind from further harm which comes from looking things up…so if i am curious about a topic, i try to ask someone else to look it up on their phone for me…if i am really bothered by a specific topic or by something i see or hear or read about, i do my best not to do any further research about that topic and instead sit in the anxiety that it has brought me…if i cant get past it then i sometimes pray to God to ask Him to cast out the negative thoughts/ideas/images from my mind…this has helped me a lot, though getting professional help from a therapist is what i still need to do…i hope that you can as well:)
Cats in the darkCats in the ...
- Date posted
- 3y
I also searched all the psych wards near me and saw the comments on Google maps. It made it worse, people were saying how bad and horrible the places were... i feel so scared
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 3y
@Solaris i know what you feel but trust me, suicidal people really wants to die, they have no fear of die because they want that, if you have fear of death it's the ultimate prove that you are not suicidal
Cats in the darkCats in the ...
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- 3y
@Anonymous Im so scared of never getting better. I have depressive symptoms so i have suicidal thoughts because of that. But most of my suicidal thoughts are intrusive ones and scare the shit out of me. Sometimes i do feel very depressed. But i dont want to die
pathpath
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- 3y
@Solaris Seeking assurance is not the way to go to deal with OCD. Talk to your therapist.
Cats in the darkCats in the ...
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- 3y
@path I know but it hurts so much, i just want it to stop
AnonymousAnonymous
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- 3y
@Solaris If you panik you can take cardiac coherence 5 minutes to stop the destress
BlakewithaBBlakewithaB
- Date posted
- 3y
@Solaris Again, try to talk to your therapist about this or figure out a way to start seeing one…in the meantime, try to stay away from looking up negative topics like those that you described until you have a chance to get help…focus on filling your mind with good things that make you feel happy and hopeful, and if you believe in God then do not be afraid to talk to Him about what is going on…it helps me to ask Him for peace and strength for myself and for others…i will pray for you
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- Date posted
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