I just wanna completely give up. Its impossible for me to focus on the things I used to enjoy. It's so hard to have the will to keep going when this world is so evil and bleak.

It's like the Paramore song 26: "Reality will break your heart. Survival will not be the hardest part. It's keeping all your hopes alive. When all the rest of you has died. So let it break your heart." I'm with you, this disorder is hell & it's not as easy to jump out of it like some people will tell you. Hold on to hope though. Stay strong, fight for YOUR life & things YOU want to do with it.

My parents keep telling me I have to fight on and keep on living but I just dont see a reason to other than for them

You sound like me on a lot of levels. I have to deal with harm OCD with intrusive thoughts, PTSD, anxiety, depression, and ADHD. It has literally fucked up my whole world. All the things that I use to love to do and enjoy(movies, metal music, knife collecting, etc etc etc.) I don't because of these mental issues. There are times when I want to just say fuck it all a give up. But then I remember that I can't give up just because it gets hard to deal with. It is frustrating when you see the world as evil and bleak believe me. But all I can tell you is that it will get better in time.

I feel you... sometimes I really think Im not making any progress (even if is not true but you know: desperation) and that I can't enjoy the things I used to love. That time pass and Im still stuck in this stupid obsession everyday. And I think about why I should keep going out with friends to feel uncomfortable or living my freetime when Im actually empty or I don't feel like myself. But... what next? Nothing? All this suffer for nothing? We just let this shit wins against us? F*ck it. I refuse to be slave of my own sickness. We are going to leave this cage. We are going to be happy. And OCD can go to hell for good and wait for me in a warm f*cking chair.

I just dont know honestly I'm at peace with the idea of just giving up now. Why suffer more and live in a world where people keep on hurting each other