I need some help so I live in Tennessee and have tenncare so I can only use my insurance in the state of Tennessee I have had ocd for along time but the past few years have been really hard and I’ve recently had a huge trigger in my new home I started looking for help again a few years ago something similar happened and had also depressed me so I admitted myself into parkridge valley in Chattanooga Tennessee I staid for 3 days admittions was really hard cause they only allow so many clothes and don’t allow qtips and I have dressing rituals I’ve been doing for 15 years I also keep my clothes in bags to keep them clean I wear my bras in order the tags are numbered I also have to do this dressing ritual everyday I dress and put on deodorant clean my ears and use my face pads and put my hair up I do all of it a certain way to and I wash my hand’s threwout the dressing ritual if I don’t do it everyday I have to do the ritual like twice the next day so do my deodorant twice use 2 qtips and all that so it’s hard going into the hospital when they only allow certain amounts of clothes they don’t allow qtips and they had to touch all of my clothes that I was bringing in I struggled in my room I had a roommate so I had to do this ritual in the bathroom I need my hygeine rinsed under water to clean it and have a clean space to put them so everything’s put while I do this ritual the way the water came out of the faucet was hard cause my hands can’t touch the sink if it does I have to start over I was already struggling and it was makeing it harder in the hospital I do the same rituals wit showering all my stuff needs to be clean I have to have shampoo and conditioner I have to have my hair brush and hair dryer and my 3 hair products I do all of that a certain way to if I don’t have that stuff I can’t complete the ritual my contamination ocd and the repetiveness of it had been really hard on me so I wasn’t showering as much and my bf has helped me wash my hair so showering in the hospital didn’t happen but I struggled in those 3 days just to do these dressing rituals and I thought I’d just get threw it I was gonna get help to stop haveing to do these things in the hospital but I hadn’t seen a doctor I hadn’t seen a therapist they only gave me medications so I was just struggling silently still wit no way to cope no help to deal wit my ocd in there but they discharged me and told me they didn’t have the resources to help me and gave me a referral to an ocd inpatient place in Chicago when I got out and did the phone call wit Chicago they ended up denying me cause they don’t accept my insurance I was told I needed inpatient I no I need help but there’s no ocd inpatient places in Tennessee and the few outpatients don’t accept my insurance and are far away I couldn’t do outpatient and drive there everyday so wat am I suppose to do parkridge valley hospital treats ocd and anxiety disorders which is wat ocd is but they couldn’t help cause they didn’t have the resources to help someone wit ocd like mine I’ve been to doctors and therapists been on medications for 15 years none of these ppl understood ocd they were only giveing me an antidepressant I needed more help and still do but can’t seem to find anyone I’m struggling wit extreme anxiety up all nite anxiety and panick attacks I’m scared to go outside I’m struggling wit my ocd and there just doesn’t seem to be anyone professional wise that understands ocd that I can tlk to get some help finding somewere to go just tlk to me bout my ocd getting me on a medication to atleast give me some relief now the doctors I can see still only wanna give me an antidepressant they don’t understand ocd and wat comes wit ocd stress anxiety worry uncertainty everything they don’t understand that it’s so debilitating I’m on ssi for my ocd I need help wat can I do.