i don’t understand, i try to fantasize about guys but when i do it isnt like how it is with women, its more so forced.. and know i feel like im bisexual when i csnt even fantasize about men.. i was watching these videos about desth and it made me think like “u have to accept ur bisexual before u die” when i know im straight but i wasnt even as anxious about it i didnt pay it any mind and that made me think that i am somehow attracted to men when ive never even gotten w literal full on erection to a man..i just want anyones advice i feel like dying bc this is becoming to much. i cent do anything in life with this thing holding onto me, i wanna do better in life and play my sports as a student athletes but i cant do that anymore because this just completely swarms my mind with everything i do snd watch. ive just started thinking of ways to end it all unfortunately. i’d rather think about that then think ab being a gay or bisexual honestly

OCD targets everything that you fear most or want least. By you saying that you’d rather think about ending it all then being gay or bisexual, it’s clear to me that you have a lot of heavy internalized (negative) feelings towards being anything but a heterosexual, and your OCD is taking advantage of that. It’s the same as other types of OCD trying to convince someone that they might hurt someone they love when that’s the last thing they would ever want to do. Just know that you are in control of your life, no matter what your OCD tells you. If you feel this strongly, there is clearly nothing deep down that you’re having to admit to yourself. Life is very much worth living, you can get through this.

OCD will twist and turn you perception of everything. Use the anxiety as your indicator that's it's OCD. As hard as it is you need to stop analysing, which is a compulsion and sit with the discomfort.

OCD haunts your mind - believe me I've been here before in my life - but even my OCD won't let me acknowledge that. Seek counselling - look at doing ERP and maybe consider medication. I'm on fluoxotine which can give you a rough ride at first but has helped me in the past. Believe me - the mind is capable of creating this pure evil!

I’m a girl and sometimes I’d also catch myself fantasize about girls rather boys a lot. So to test myself, when I went to school I looked at pretty girls to see how I feel and then attractive guys. I realized that girls are really attractive but i wasn’t sexually attracted to them, while I’ve had many crushes on guys. I think I’m not used to the idea of the male body if that makes sense. I could never imagine myself doing it with a guy because their stuff seams weird to me but when I imagine it with a girl it just seems more familiar? But I found out that just because I find girls attractive doesn’t mean I’m sexually attracted to them if they makes sense. So have you had any ACTUAL crushes on a girl? Like irl? Did your heart beat faster when around them? Or is it only in your head? Lmk if you have any other questions