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OCD targets everything that you fear most or want least. By you saying that you’d rather think about ending it all then being gay or bisexual, it’s clear to me that you have a lot of heavy internalized (negative) feelings towards being anything but a heterosexual, and your OCD is taking advantage of that. It’s the same as other types of OCD trying to convince someone that they might hurt someone they love when that’s the last thing they would ever want to do. Just know that you are in control of your life, no matter what your OCD tells you. If you feel this strongly, there is clearly nothing deep down that you’re having to admit to yourself. Life is very much worth living, you can get through this.
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OCD will twist and turn you perception of everything. Use the anxiety as your indicator that's it's OCD. As hard as it is you need to stop analysing, which is a compulsion and sit with the discomfort.
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OCD haunts your mind - believe me I've been here before in my life - but even my OCD won't let me acknowledge that. Seek counselling - look at doing ERP and maybe consider medication. I'm on fluoxotine which can give you a rough ride at first but has helped me in the past. Believe me - the mind is capable of creating this pure evil!
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I’m a girl and sometimes I’d also catch myself fantasize about girls rather boys a lot. So to test myself, when I went to school I looked at pretty girls to see how I feel and then attractive guys. I realized that girls are really attractive but i wasn’t sexually attracted to them, while I’ve had many crushes on guys. I think I’m not used to the idea of the male body if that makes sense. I could never imagine myself doing it with a guy because their stuff seams weird to me but when I imagine it with a girl it just seems more familiar? But I found out that just because I find girls attractive doesn’t mean I’m sexually attracted to them if they makes sense. So have you had any ACTUAL crushes on a girl? Like irl? Did your heart beat faster when around them? Or is it only in your head? Lmk if you have any other questions
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- 19w
Sorry long post. Anyone feel like now they’re just in extreme denial. Like when I was little I noticed guys more than girls in movies and was more drawn to them. I remember changing my mindset to switch that. 98%of my life has been straight until recently. I felt drawn to some guys but never thought of it sexually. Always had girl crushes dreams and porn. Now I watch porn and I feel like straight takes longer and then I go and watch gay porn and feel nothing until I tell myself it’s two attractive dudes and love is love and imagine physical sensations and then it hits like suddenly. Like I have to convince myself it’s alright. Then when I try again I can do all that but feel nothing and then straight porn works. Idk if it’s just getting a fix or the first time works with anything or what but it’s confusing. On top of that I’ve felt girl relationships including my wife maybe miss something and a guy maybe matches that feeling that but then I feel like I’d be missing something without a girl or my wife. Idk I’ve had some rough times in life with male figures in my life but idk. I feel like I have to convince myself more and more that I’m straight even more than the first time I dealt with this. Can someone relate? Please
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I’ve completely lost myself. I can’t focus on my studies, I can’t go to the gym. Dang it I can’t even be around my male friends normally anymore. I got no idea why or how this happened but the only thing I know for sure is that I never questioned my sexuality neither doubted it. I never cared in general. I just liked girls. I keep testing and keep testing and keep testing my arousal but no matter how many times I see but I don’t feel the same way for guys that I do with girls my mind will always try to make me believe that I am gay. It’s like it’s forcing me into an identity I never asked for. But at the end of the day like my psychologist told me. Sexuality doesn’t change. So since I never felt anything for guys in my life it’s ocd. I’ve been up and down for 5 months now and while the last week I was feeling way better. Monday now and I’m back to zero. I just want to go back when everything was normal. I can’t keep living with this.
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Like I can’t think straight. This is making me doubt everything I’ve thought about myself and even makes me feel like I like the thoughts when I know I don’t. Like I would be less anxious at a time while I still have the thoughts and my mind would go “oh so you like it you must be gay” or the other one where I’m not anxious and I think of my attraction for girls that I’ve had my whole life and my mind goes “see now you’re not into them you’re gay” like it’s so stupid but so effective. I clearly remember being into girls my whole life but my mind is making me believe that all these attractions and feelings for women were all fake or “a thing of the past”. But I can still get aroused by women but I have this weird anxiety going on which brings these sensations/feelings and it’s so weird. Today I’ve spent my whole day thinking about it like I’ve been doing for 5 months now. I know that this aint normal but my mind just won’t let me live in peace. I never cared about my sexuality cuz I simply liked women my whole life but now my sexuality is a fundamental philosophy. I hate this.
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