Peace be upon all of you, guys there's an assignment which has to be done in two days and the professor said we should write the assignment in our own handwriting and hand it in to him, after I finished writing the draft on my laptop, I started transferring and writing it on paper in my own handwriting but since last night I was only able to write one paragraph out of hundreds because of my obsessive compulsive disorder OCD, the handwriting was supposed to look PERFECT in my eyes but it didn't I've even re-written dozens of times !!! So today i thought about telling my professor to allow me to submit the assignment electronically, but at the same time I STRONGLY FEEL THAT I AM LYING TO HIM because I didn't try enough even though I tried, I don't want to tell him that i have obsessive compulsive disorder OCD because deep down i know he won't truly and completely understand and I don't want to lie to him on another pretext, i don't know what i should do!!!! Should i tell him ? What if he said no? Please HELP ME!

If you want to challenge yourself, write out the entire paper by hand without correcting any imperfections and turn it in. Exposures like that are the way to overcome your theme. However, if you're still working up to an exercise of that caliber, write your professor an email. Politely explain your disorder, maybe send a link to an article explaining it (I think NOCD has an article on the Just Right theme...) and ask if he'd be willing to make an exception or at least work with you (extend the due date, accept the paper partially written out/partially digitally, etc.). I know it's intimidating, but speaking as someone who has had to negotiate a lot with professors about class attendance because of covid (a family member of mine is immunocompromised), many instructors are much more sympathetic than you would think, and if you're genuinely trying to complete all the work but are running into obstacles that aren't your fault, they're often more than willing to work with you. If he's still uncompromising after receiving your email, I would consider reaching out to either the disability services or general student services department; I imagine they would be willing to help you figure something out.

you aren’t lying love. Ocd makes you doubt everything, even the legitimacy of your ocd. The idea of turning in your digital final and a few pages you’ve hand written sounds like a great idea. Of course message your professor and let us know how it goes!