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I’m virtually holding your hand, @idont241. I’ve been where you are and i know it’s so dark. I wish I could give you a hug because I know the agony. I’m literally crying right now cause I’m just so sad- none of us deserve this.
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@idont241 The thoughts will never go away, we just have to be able to not pay them any attention. I’ve seen all your posts and I identify them with every single one of them but only with guys. It’s driving me crazy as well. But we will get over this, I’ve been where you are right now but I’m having it worse. I no longer feel anxious by my gay thoughts, they even seem “pleasurable”. My head is thrown in a cycle saying “see, no anxiety. You’re gay” but If I was gay I would have no problem with it. It’s just it doesn’t feel right to me. We will get over this. Trust me. My brain is creating false memories and feelings as well.
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Idont241 it s OCD ! Don t worry about that you have to stop thinking about and convince yourself it s just OCD I ve been there too and I surpass it. Leah25 yes none of us deserve this :'(
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Don t say that :( we can do it !! Sometimes we fall but we recover !
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I m so tired too so so so so sooooo tired but I fall and i rise always always for yeaaaaaars
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you will recover! don’t say that , your letting your ocd get the best of you right now , don’t let it show ocd who’s boss!!
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We can do it !!!! We have noo choice !!! We have to deal with it
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It hurts so much, so much pain, I want to give up, I feel like both conditions make each other worse, trying to fight back, trying so hard not to look for answers but this makes it so hard, I just..feel like I have very little hope, I'm so......so tired.
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I’ve completely lost myself. I can’t focus on my studies, I can’t go to the gym. Dang it I can’t even be around my male friends normally anymore. I got no idea why or how this happened but the only thing I know for sure is that I never questioned my sexuality neither doubted it. I never cared in general. I just liked girls. I keep testing and keep testing and keep testing my arousal but no matter how many times I see but I don’t feel the same way for guys that I do with girls my mind will always try to make me believe that I am gay. It’s like it’s forcing me into an identity I never asked for. But at the end of the day like my psychologist told me. Sexuality doesn’t change. So since I never felt anything for guys in my life it’s ocd. I’ve been up and down for 5 months now and while the last week I was feeling way better. Monday now and I’m back to zero. I just want to go back when everything was normal. I can’t keep living with this.
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I’m so tired. I’m so tired. I’ve lost so much weight due to this mental illness. I sleep 18 hours a day to escape these thoughts. I grieve my old self so much. I miss crushing on men, I miss loving men, I miss dressing up nice and get compliments from men, I miss listening to music and daydream about my dream man. I miss wanting to get married and have my own kids with my dream husband. All of those things… I’ve desired them so much and I’ve daydreamed about them so much. My OCD is telling me that it’s all fake. I miss my old desire and love for men. I’m so tired of being alive. I’m so tired of seeing multiple posts where people who apparently suffered from SOOCD became their fears. I’m so tired. Cause y’all probably didn’t even have ocd in the first place idc. I will say it again, has it been someone with pocd or harm ocd and their obsessions/fears became true NONE of y’all would’ve had the same reaction. Stop normalizing soocd obsessions becoming true. It is someone’s worst nightmare. People are out here attempting because of it.
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