I am so tired of this. I give up. Are you happy now hocd? You’ve oficially broken me

I’m virtually holding your hand, @idont241. I’ve been where you are and i know it’s so dark. I wish I could give you a hug because I know the agony. I’m literally crying right now cause I’m just so sad- none of us deserve this.

@idont241 The thoughts will never go away, we just have to be able to not pay them any attention. I’ve seen all your posts and I identify them with every single one of them but only with guys. It’s driving me crazy as well. But we will get over this, I’ve been where you are right now but I’m having it worse. I no longer feel anxious by my gay thoughts, they even seem “pleasurable”. My head is thrown in a cycle saying “see, no anxiety. You’re gay” but If I was gay I would have no problem with it. It’s just it doesn’t feel right to me. We will get over this. Trust me. My brain is creating false memories and feelings as well.

It is so hard right now. I don’t know anything. I can’t look at a straight couple anymore without being filled with anxiety and thoughts. My head hurts so much from crying. I am done with this. I don’t know who i am capable of loving. All of my normal rituals I did to try to distract myself are gone because I am in a total different country right now. Thinking is so hard now. I used to be this happy person now I am not. I literally think every woman is good looking now. This is the worst thing that has ever happened to me

I am just so lost right now. I feel numb

I read it. My head keeps telling me I’ll like these thoughts one day. I am so confused. I can’t even hear anyone talk about relationships without turning so anxious

Idont241 it s OCD ! Don t worry about that you have to stop thinking about and convince yourself it s just OCD I ve been there too and I surpass it. Leah25 yes none of us deserve this :'(

Don t say that :( we can do it !! Sometimes we fall but we recover !

I don’t think I’ll ever recover tho. I am so lost, I can’t feel what’s real and what’s not. I don’t even recognize myself. I am so tired

I m so tired too so so so so sooooo tired but I fall and i rise always always for yeaaaaaars

you will recover! don’t say that , your letting your ocd get the best of you right now , don’t let it show ocd who’s boss!!

We can do it !!!! We have noo choice !!! We have to deal with it

https://www.intrusivethoughts.org/?topic=sexuality read this !