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- 6y ago
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- 6y ago
I’m virtually holding your hand, @idont241. I’ve been where you are and i know it’s so dark. I wish I could give you a hug because I know the agony. I’m literally crying right now cause I’m just so sad- none of us deserve this.
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- 6y ago
@idont241 The thoughts will never go away, we just have to be able to not pay them any attention. I’ve seen all your posts and I identify them with every single one of them but only with guys. It’s driving me crazy as well. But we will get over this, I’ve been where you are right now but I’m having it worse. I no longer feel anxious by my gay thoughts, they even seem “pleasurable”. My head is thrown in a cycle saying “see, no anxiety. You’re gay” but If I was gay I would have no problem with it. It’s just it doesn’t feel right to me. We will get over this. Trust me. My brain is creating false memories and feelings as well.
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- 6y ago
Idont241 it s OCD ! Don t worry about that you have to stop thinking about and convince yourself it s just OCD I ve been there too and I surpass it. Leah25 yes none of us deserve this :'(
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- 6y ago
Don t say that :( we can do it !! Sometimes we fall but we recover !
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- 6y ago
I m so tired too so so so so sooooo tired but I fall and i rise always always for yeaaaaaars
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- 6y ago
you will recover! don’t say that , your letting your ocd get the best of you right now , don’t let it show ocd who’s boss!!
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- 6y ago
We can do it !!!! We have noo choice !!! We have to deal with it
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- 6y ago
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- 20w ago
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- 19w ago
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- 11w ago
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