ranchdoritos88
- Date posted
- 6y
lehamleham
- Date posted
- 6y
Porn is literally the worst way POSSIBLE to make some sort of ‘conclusion’ about your sexuality. (Not that there is any way at all- don’t go looking for it!!) Gay people watch straight porn, straight people watch gay porn, women get turned on by lesbian porn, and some people on both sides of the spectrum never watch porn at all. Arousal after watching sexual things cannot decide what you want or prefer in your own life. You’re just watching sexual people do sexual things!
112233445566112233445566
- Date posted
- 6y
Honestly it doesn't matter - just enjoy your marriage and be yourself, maybe you can explore this new sexual side with your husband :) consider seeing a relationship therapist to help talk about and communicate what your experiencing :)
WisebloodWiseblood
- Date posted
- 6y
When the thought comes, try to say “maybe I am bi” and then do what you were doing before the intrusive thought. Obsessing over a question almost never leads you closer to the answer. If you want the truth, let your obsessive thoughts pass and you might find clarity.
lehamleham
- Date posted
- 6y
(I don’t mean to be reassuring here- just want you to know!!)
morgz82morgz82
- Date posted
- 6y
You are watching straight porn and you said you love men, to non ocd that would be enough. Being ocd I know its not. Personally I had to become ok with the possibility of being homosexual to enable me to find my straight self again, like would it really matter if I was gay? Its not the end of the world is it and I dont know why I built it up so much, and when I started thinking like that, I settled back into my hetro life, I strongly back gay rights now though and support the gay community. Thats what helped me anyway, personally I think if you stop building it up the being bi would be a bad thing (it wouldnt, and you could still be with a man) you will stop obsessing about it and like me, you will prob find something else to obsess about!
ranchdoritos88ranchdoritos88
- Date posted
- 6y
Thanks everyone. @Leah25. I agree. That's how I see it too. We are sexual beings and sexual content can turn us on. It doesn't define what we desire. @wiseblood. Thanks for the advice. I noticed that is true. When I finally stop obsessing then the answers become clear. @morgz82. That's what I need to do. Just accept the possibility and move on. It isn't the end of the world if I am bi.
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- 16w
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- Date posted
- 14w
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