Janajana

Date posted: 3y

Guilt and responsibility

As a Christian I did a lot of sins before I repented and still mess up sometimes. I lied a lot to my partner about things. I feel responsibility for these lies. I confessed a lot of things to him but not all things and not in detail. I asked for generally forgiveness, also for me to not get further exposed and to just focus on the future instead of old mistakes and lies. I feel like I cannot be free now. Like I need to make every lie right. Because if not the person cannot see my „true self“. I really really want to just let the past go and just try to not do these mistakes again and If I do I want to work on it with god in private. Can someone give me advise?

allieandscrup

Date posted: 3y

This is very very very OCD. I’ve been through the exact same thing. The guilt will go away, but you have to stop giving it so much attention. As Christians, we are forgiven in Christ. We are not responsible for confessing everything we’ve ever done wrong. It would be impossible, anyway! Plus, God never said we had to confess to everyone else we have wronged (or may have wronged). Sure, it seems like a nice idea, but with OCD, you have to stop yourself. If we didn’t have OCD, I think we could just be like “hey, I wronged you, I’m sorry, please forgive me”and then move on. But it’s not like that for us! I had the exact same compulsion with confessing everything to my partner. I thought maybe I left something out, and if he knew it, he wouldn’t like me anymore, so he should know, so he could make the most informed choice on if he wanted to be with me. Eventually, I realized this was OCD and compulsive. I told him I was going to stop telling him these things because it was compulsive, and he was completely supportive of this. It was insanely hard to resist confessing for a while, but it’s gotten so much easier. Every once in a while it flares up, but not nearly as intense as it used to be! The More you resist compulsions, the easier it gets.

Janajana

Date posted: 3y

Thank you so much this described my situation so good!

carr1606

Date posted: 3y

I have been struggling with this exact situation for over 2 years now. I have never come across anybody with the same situation or even remotely similar. This comment and MANY others have lifted the world off of my shoulders. Thank you for sharing, it helps more than you will ever know.

Anonymous

Date posted: 3y

And understand what experiencing freedom in Christ actually looks like because I’m saved but still live like I’m not saved cuz I’m ashamed and guilty all the time. I know I’m spamming you but I hope your know that your not alone and I hope he brings you contenement and piece of mind

Janajana

Date posted: 3y

Thank you so much for sharing your experience with this too. You can share your struggle in this chat every time you want , it really makes me feel less alone! God bless you and I hope you find peace with this too !

Janajana

Date posted: 3y

@Janajana It also is a hard thing for me beacause I still sin in my mind sometimes and I feel like it is cheating to my partner. I really want to be 100% loyal in my thoughts too but with OCD I guess I makes it hatder. I feel the need to confess that too

Janajana

Date posted: 3y

I feel like I have to get these lies „right“ if I do not I still take the sins with me. It is a exhausting thing , I acknowledge I’m a sinner and know that I changed and want to change everyday for the better but it is such a hard thing to correct things from the past like telling people the truth from these lies in detail etc. . Do I have to do that ?

hellopeople

User type: NOCD Alumni

Date posted: 3y

No, you don’t have to confess in detail!

Janajana

Date posted: 3y

@hellopeople Thank you .But do I have to confess ?

hellopeople

User type: NOCD Alumni

Date posted: 3y

@Janajana You don’t have to do anything. God wants us to come to him to repent, but he already knows every detail. If I stole something I would confess, “God, I’m a thief, forgive me” but I wouldn’t spent an hour describing how I felt and the situation in every light possible. God knows. Trust that.

Anonymous

Date posted: 3y

I feel like that all the time and it’s like a mental prison and makes my faith feel so confusing I was just dealing with this today and I’m so glad you posted something

Anonymous

Date posted: 3y

Cuz I feel less alone now. I’ve been praying for God to help me just be in his presence and receive his love and I was telling God that I don’t know how to do that and no matter how hard I try to “make it right” by myself or see him clearly I really don’t have a good concept and it is paralyzing. So I’ve been asking him to show me how to receive his love

Anonymous

Date posted: 3y

*peace

hellopeople

User type: NOCD Alumni

Date posted: 3y

Praying for you and that you find rest in grace given to you as a gift!! ❣️

Anonymous

Date posted: 3y

How do you feel after telling your partner something?

Janajana

Date posted: 3y

I feel slightly better but somehow also like I have left something out , did not tell everything exactly how it was etc. This takes me to the point to confess again etc.

Anonymous

Date posted: 3y

What has he/she said?

hellopeople

User type: NOCD Alumni

Date posted: 3y

I also tried to go back in time and make wrongs right… but that stirs up the past. Just forgive without reconciliation for those…

J🧸

Date posted: 24w

What if I’m a criminal?

I know I shouldn’t and I’m trying not to ask for reassurance but how do I deal with this when I made real event mistakes in childhood? I’ve opened up to my cousin about this who’s an adult and believes that kids can be influenced at a young age and mimic things that they see and friends and my therapist. They all see the good in me and my stupid childhood mistakes but the guilt is very strong and even though I’ve opened up It’s telling me to open up more and more and I don’t know what else it wants from me.

Real Events OCD

Lillo2000

Date posted: 23w

Confession compulsion

I’ve been feeling the compulsion of confession again. I hate confessing things to my boyfriend I don’t want him to carry the burden. I’d rather hurt than him hurt. But I feel I did something wrong and he needs to know. Like I need to be punished or something. I may be over reacting to it but I just feel guilty and I had a panic attack when I woke up yesterday. I would never cheat on him. Just making guys laugh I feel like I am doing him wrong or flirting. And then when I notice it I just feel awful. I just want to be liked and noticed not romantically but just as a human. I don’t know why I act like this and feel the need to tell him as if I slept with someone. I think it’s attacking my biggest fear which is losing him. Does anyone have experience with this?

dee012

Date posted: 21w

taboo theme ocd and childhood trauma

i need some kind words or maybe some advice? basically i went through trauma as a kid including sexual, and acted out in disturbing ways. I’ve done things i regret. even as an early teenager i did also. the only weird things ive done recently were compulsions and weird ocd driven stuff… but besides that ive found it easy to forgive myself for a lot of stuff because i know myself and my intentions and also talking to people helps. but one thing that’s hard is when im intimate with others or in a relationship. i feel so gross and undeserving like if they knew everything ive done in my life they would hate me. I don’t tell everyone everything, i think i only did that with therapists and like one family member. I feel like if I don’t tell someone everything I’ve done that I regret and see if they forgive me for it, then that means im “hiding” something about me and being malicious. anything helps :(

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