jordandroberts
- Date posted
- 6y
jordandrobertsjordandroberts
- Date posted
- 6y
well the question is do you really love him deep down beyond these OCD thoughts and doubts?
petuniaspetunias
- Date posted
- 6y
Yeah. That is the question. Haha the question my OCD tortures me with. Did you ask me that as an exposure?
jordandrobertsjordandroberts
- Date posted
- 6y
yes i can confidently say that if i wasn’t dealing with these OCD thoughts that i know i love her and truly care about her
petuniaspetunias
- Date posted
- 6y
That's awesome. And triggering to hear. I guess ROCD impacts us in different ways.
YeethawYeethaw
- Date posted
- 6y
Oh, I feel that. The disconnect I mean. I start obsessing over what it means and if I don't care as much about her as I say I do or that I'm lying when I say I love her, even tho I know for a fact that I do love her!! It's just the 'what if' intrusive thoughts that trouble me and make me anxious and feel somewhat disconnected. But man, when I'm with her? I *know* that I love her, and that I'm just obsessing over what ifs because I'm terrified of hurting her. But ye, that disconnected feeling really sucks, and I feel ya a lot on that ;-;
petuniaspetunias
- Date posted
- 6y
For me, 100%. It's always worse when I'm away from them. My doubts are rly strong when I'm away and not so bad when I'm with him. Can I ask you a question? We're you/are you scared of people finding out about your relationship? I'm get this scared feeling, like they're gonna find out I'm a fraud, that I don't rly love him, and like since ROCD tells me we're inevitably gonna break up, that I'll be ashamed in the future. Idk.
petuniaspetunias
- Date posted
- 6y
@jordandroberta do you feel like you can confidently answer that question?
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- Date posted
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- Date posted
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