My ocd makes me feel like I’m a shitty person, like I’m worse than other people and in a dark times like maybe it would be better if I wasn’t existing (I’m not gonna commit suicide don’t worry it’s just a feeling)… idk maybe I’m just looking for support and also coping advice Like I always hear/see the statement “people with ocd are usually very kind and sensitive and would never do any harm knowingly” and then I’m like maybe I’m worse than most people with ocd because I’m not that kind I can be quite irritable and angry and I feel pretty bad about myself

i would say too that people w OCD tend to hold themselves to a very high standard, oftentimes too high. we are extremely self critical and we experience so much doubt and subsequently guilt throughout our lives. this disorder is kind of like our own brains attacking themselves. obviously i cannot provide you reaasurance. but keep in mind that we are often our own worst critics, especially with OCD in the mix.

I'm sure you can look back and see how many times you have touched someone's life,with that being said those people would never agree that you not exsisting would be a good idea. I think one of our problems is that if our friends were ocd we would encourage them and love them in spite of it but when it comes to encouraging and loving ourselves sometimes we can't be that caring and loving. OCD is a lie and it really does seem that we sabotage ourselves. We don't though. None of us said excuse me can you please sign me up for ocd. This is not something that we did to ourselves. I hope that all of us can learn to love ourselves a little more,forgive ourselves for letting ocd cause havoc in our lives and to keep learning that we are all stronger than ocd. Also if you believe in Jesus or a higher power believe that tomorrow we will do better. Sometimes I think people with ocd anxiety disorders are the strong ones. In spite of all this we get up everyday ,go to work,take care of family, pay our bills and keep on keeping on. We do NOT give into our fears but we search to overcome and move on from these adversities.

My pleasure.

Remember, OCD is a liar!