My ocd makes me feel like I’m a shitty person, like I’m worse than other people and in a dark times like maybe it would be better if I wasn’t existing (I’m not gonna commit suicide don’t worry it’s just a feeling)… idk maybe I’m just looking for support and also coping advice Like I always hear/see the statement “people with ocd are usually very kind and sensitive and would never do any harm knowingly” and then I’m like maybe I’m worse than most people with ocd because I’m not that kind I can be quite irritable and angry and I feel pretty bad about myself

mostdope42

Date posted: 3y ago

i would say too that people w OCD tend to hold themselves to a very high standard, oftentimes too high. we are extremely self critical and we experience so much doubt and subsequently guilt throughout our lives. this disorder is kind of like our own brains attacking themselves. obviously i cannot provide you reaasurance. but keep in mind that we are often our own worst critics, especially with OCD in the mix.

hane

Date posted: 3y ago

I'm sure you can look back and see how many times you have touched someone's life,with that being said those people would never agree that you not exsisting would be a good idea. I think one of our problems is that if our friends were ocd we would encourage them and love them in spite of it but when it comes to encouraging and loving ourselves sometimes we can't be that caring and loving. OCD is a lie and it really does seem that we sabotage ourselves. We don't though. None of us said excuse me can you please sign me up for ocd. This is not something that we did to ourselves. I hope that all of us can learn to love ourselves a little more,forgive ourselves for letting ocd cause havoc in our lives and to keep learning that we are all stronger than ocd. Also if you believe in Jesus or a higher power believe that tomorrow we will do better. Sometimes I think people with ocd anxiety disorders are the strong ones. In spite of all this we get up everyday ,go to work,take care of family, pay our bills and keep on keeping on. We do NOT give into our fears but we search to overcome and move on from these adversities.

PlzH3lpMe

Date posted: 3y ago

Thank you!

hane

Date posted: 3y ago

My pleasure.

tlaaron

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 3y ago

Remember, OCD is a liar!

andrea_sam730

Date posted: 20w ago

Self pleasure and intrusive thoughts :/

I’m sharing this bc I need advice or even support from anyone who can relate. If you can’t relate and don’t think you’ll say anything helpful or kind pls don’t comment anything… I’ve been struggling with somethings that’s making me question myself. There has been moments while self pleasuring when I get intrusive thoughts, in those moments it feels like I’m enjoying or even self pleasuring myself bc of the thought. Right after I immediately have an anxiety attack and my HEART drops bc it feels terrible I feel like a disgusting monster :( ppl have told me I haven’t done a bad bc of how intense my guilt and panic are but I keep thinking that MAYBE I made a horrible decision in the moment and the guilt is just realising that it’s just wrong this doesn’t make sense to me because I’ve always told myself that I would never act on this in 1 million years and I’ve been known that these things are wrong so I’m just like constantly questioning myself these feelings and exact same situation has happened two times already I even promised myself that I wouldn’t act on anything beforehand and yeah, I still felt like I did act on my thought during my alone time I’m genuinely convinced that I’m a horrible and it’s even got into the point where I don’t wanna be here anymore and I don’t even think this is my OCD :( tbh

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1Jwg3tb3tter

Date posted: 15w ago

I don’t like myself

I’m really down and don’t have anyone i feel i can turn to. I’m just so tired of living as myself. I hate who i love with including myself. I feel so worthless. Having ocd on top of it makes me feel like im just a waste of space. I dont know how to stop feeling this way. Or if i deserve to. That’s all :(

aaanonymous

Date posted: 14w ago

never felt this bad before

i feel miserable, i don't know who to turn to anymore. i had very bad periods in my life where i felt depressed and suicidal for years but nothing compares to this, not only i feel depressed but my ocd is at an all time high. idk what to do i Just want to cry. i feel like I'm a monster and it feels reasonable to see myself this way. im a horrible person who doesn't deserve any of the good things in my life

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