My ocd makes me feel like I’m a shitty person, like I’m worse than other people and in a dark times like maybe it would be better if I wasn’t existing (I’m not gonna commit suicide don’t worry it’s just a feeling)… idk maybe I’m just looking for support and also coping advice Like I always hear/see the statement “people with ocd are usually very kind and sensitive and would never do any harm knowingly” and then I’m like maybe I’m worse than most people with ocd because I’m not that kind I can be quite irritable and angry and I feel pretty bad about myself

I believe I have moral OCD and I reassurance seek about things because my brain genuinely cannot recognise if I should be upset/worried/ashamed about something or not. My brain just gets locked on one thought and cant get any real perspective. I read a post today on a OCD support group on fb where someone said "bad people often want reassurance to make them feel better about who they are/what they have done and get this reassurance online from people who dont know the full story about them". And it really triggered me because it made me think, am I not a good person? Is this really OCD? what if it's not and I am doing exactly what that person said? And that was so scary to me. I dont think I'm a bad person, I'll admit to making mistakes in the past like every other human on the planet but my intentions were never bad ones. And then I feel scared for even worrying about what that person said bc why would I worry after reading that? I feel like my brain just cant distinguish from reality and the reality that its created and its terrifying.

does anyone else struggle not only being hard on themselves when they mess up or have bad thoughts but also being extremely critical and unforgiving of those closest to them? Sometimes I truly feel so disappointed at the people closest to me, and it feels justifiable but also exhausting and I can’t tell if my ocd is amplifying it/if it’s forgivable, or how angry/disappointed/for how long I’m supposed to feel. I struggle being mad at myself for not being a good enough person, but I think I struggle even more at the people around me not caring more about others, etc.

OCD making me feel like a terrible human being. Focusing entirely on my flaws I forget the good things about myself. Sometimes I question if I ever had any. My OCD does center around themes that question my morality. Lately I’ve scared myself into believing I’m a covert narcissist. That comes heavily from my ROCD and CPTSD symptoms lately. I look at my partner who is such an accomplished, educated man…and then I look at myself as a woman who has let the years pass by out of fear. It makes it worse he wants to help me. Get me back into school. Help with my finances. I feel like such a parasite at times. He deserves better. Idk I just needed to type this out and get it off my chest.