I’m so nervous to start erp with my therapist as I feel it’s truly a lost cause for me and my situation. I’m any case I just want to be able to calm down. I don’t know how to stop feeling so uneasy about this. How do you stop feeling so uncomfortable with yourself and with interacting with other with pocd? I just can’t calm down and focus on anything. I isn’t want to rest existing is so incredibly painful
I definitely felt like this. It’s pretty disturbing. Having that what if thought with children and sometimes the thoughts are really really disturbing. This past week I haven’t been able to sleep or eat well. This is a sign that we are not ok with these thoughts. You can get help and I really hope you do. feel hopeful that you will get better! Feel hopeful that you will be happy again. My thoughts are basically an all day thing right now like im basically living in my head. This isnt normal. It’s definitely ocd. I too am exhausted and just want to stop existing. But I am super hopeful and know that this ocd is not us. we may think weirdly but our morals and values are stronger than these thoughts. I pray erp goes well for you. You want the help. You’re on the right path.
It’s not a lost cause. It WILL help you!!
For me it’s not just thoughts tho, I have feelings that accompany the thoughts that feel like I like the thoughts and it just freaks me out. I guess that would prove that I’m not okay with the feelings, but I still have the feelings sigh
That’s alright, I can hardly feel reassurance anymore anyway. I just take that sentiment and feel as though that doesn’t apply to me, the feelings are real for me.
It’s an ugly feeling but I think as I’ve been pushing through normal activities and remembering OCD is hungry for this exact attention, your reassurance is an appetizer as it comes back for the actual entree which is the rumination and anxiety to fuel it. I struggle with keeping that mf starving but it’s definitely hard trying to integrate things I normally would do without feeling like I’m liking these thoughts, they’re slowly starting to go away or at least my fear of them.
It feels like I can never even get to be able to get there. It shakes me to my core and writing out my fears, triggers, and compulsions today for my therapist made my OCD finally feel real and that it’s not just my anxiety. Has anyone else struggled with this? Any tips for newbies who are scared 💩less?
I need a different perspective on this. I feel like I'm being run through the ringer. I'm doing what I can to avoid reassurance and not avoid triggers but I get triggered every day. I'm trying so hard to sit with the panic and the horror but it's so hard. It gets to the point I feel physically sick. Is there anything that I can do to help with this? I feel alone. I don't feel strong, I feel like a punching bag. Why is this so hard to master? I really want to know it gets easier. I've been suffering from POCD that has evolved and gotten worse and worse over the past eight months that has been torturing me multiple times on a daily basis and I feel like I'm drowning. I want to run away and hide because my life feel like it's seconds from being ruined. Please, please tell me this gets easier. That this ERP therapy will stop making me feel like I'm dying. The small moments of victory feel so brief only for me to get hit with another wave. There is so much uncertainty over such a horrific thing I feel ill. I feel afraid to be alone with my mind. Please if anyone out there can please give me tips on how to handle ERP. One moment I think I'm finally beating this thing and the next it's got me pinned and I'm terrified my life will be ruined. I want my peace back, I need help and I'm doing everything I can to resist compulsions but I feel so alone and dirty and disgusting. Please help me. Thank you for any advice 💕
I am new to NOCD and I have been really battling to understand and accept ERP. I feel intense sadness all day everyday, I feel no relief from feelings of intense depression, which is probably caused by the OCD. I can't fathom how I am supposed to just accept this state of depression and constant fear and not allow myself any room for trying to fix myself. I want to fix myself, I want to get better, but apparently I am not supposed to feel that, I need to say that maybe I will get better or maybe I won't. I am not supposed to do anything and I just can't understand it. Please help
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