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I tend to sexually fantasize and/or romantically as well when I am emotionally okay and at stable mentality so whenever I have these good days , ocd immediately gets in the way . For example - I would fantasize about my guy crush and feel erection ,but then images or thoughts race my Head and make me believe I am into whatever I was thinking during the ocd spike . I know I am not attractive to anyone other than guys .
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I understand how you’re feeling . You’re obviously exhausted and feeling so flared up because ocd wants you to believe your thoughts or worst possible thing that does against your values , however - giving this cliche advice , you just have to sit wit the anxiety . I reflect back to all of my episodes I have had for years and makes me feel hopeful I can still go further into this ocd battle . It’s all just a cycle . And you are not your ocd . Sorry if this didn’t help; as someone once posted “ you’ve been through this before and you can get out again “ - this helped me find relief .
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It sounds like your having an intrusive sexual thought & your compulsion is to flex your pelvic muscles. Can you try to sit with the uncomfortable sexual thought & NOT flex? Sounds like classic OCD to me. OCD always wants us to think it’s something else or ‘special’ or REALLY gross, but at the end of the day, it’s just your OCD!
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Just wanna say I completely agree with all of this^^^ and, none of us are “sickos” including you, we just have very intense reactions to our intrusive thoughts (and everyone has intrusive thoughts. Everyone. They just bother us more than they bother people who don’t have OCD)
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Oh also sometimes I try to resist but it seems like I can’t do it every time all day? Like it’s not sustainable And I feel garbage today
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And does anyone have advice on how to handle this because regular ocd advice I feel like doesn’t fully address this
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Recently ive been getting very scared to even be angry bc of the horrible thoughts I have and it feels even more real when I'm angry or even annoyed. Rn I was not even super annoyed at my neice but I felt a twinge of annoyance since she went up to my face and was yelling at me while I was resting on the bed and I got this image of doing something bad to her and I felt my hand twitch very little. I got nervous and felt relieved when her dad told her to stop screaming for no reason. I've been hyperfocusing on my bodily reactions (mainly my hands or how I'm feeling like did I just enjoy that? Was I considering???) And I've noticed the small twitches whenever I'm mad or annoyed and it's scaring me so bad! Like do I want to act out? Am I holding back??? I used to not even twitch at all when mad and I felt 100% sure I'll never act out but now it feels like I don't know bc what do these twitches mean?, I do know I don't want to ever act out but it's so scary. Recently whenever I feel angry once the argument is over I cry really bad after I'm alone and I pray so i never want or act out. And when the annoyance passes I also feel so guilty and want to stay away. Im scared these are real urges and i research for many many hours to make sure they arent urges or impulses and i also tend to ask chatgpt or here if the anxiety gets so bad 😕
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Recently ive been getting very scared to even be angry (i try to avoid even being angry if i can!) bc of the horrible thoughts I have and it feels even more real when I'm angry or even annoyed. I've been hyperfocusing on my bodily reactions (mainly my hands or how I'm feeling like did I just enjoy that? Was I considering? Did it just move? Why is it tingly? Why did it twitch?) And I've noticed the small twitches whenever I'm mad or annoyed and it's scaring me so bad! Like do I want to act out? Am I holding back? Is this an indication i was about to do something or will in the future? I used to not even twitch at all when mad and I felt 100% sure I'll never act out but now it feels like I don't even know anymore bc of these twitches. Im so afraid! What I do know is I don't want to ever act out (idea is distressing not appealing) but it's so scary like why did i twitch or was i about to act out? Im scared these are real urges and i research for many many hours to make sure they arent real urges or impulses and i also tend to ask ai or here if the anxiety gets so bad. Like how do I know of this is actually a serious concern and I should be very worried???
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TW// nsfw and 18 up pls i can self pleasure without even realizing it. not like full blown, but it just happens when i dissociate and think about past flings or whenever im bored. just like casual touching myself. sometimes it happens when im scrolling on my phone or when im doing school work. what sucks is sometimes kids will pop up on my phone and for example today i was doing studies on a mental health in children. when i came to, basically becoming fully aware, i was like wtf. because of what was on my screen and what i was researching. it freaked me out really bad and i know it wasn’t with any bad intent it just makes me feel bad if that makes sense. like i dissociate basically and i am doing the touching like on pilot mode if that makes sense so whatever content on my phone or schoolwork isn’t even associated with the act. It just makes me feel like i was doing it to whatever was on my screen which ik I wasn’t bc I would’ve been aware and freaked tf out but I still am freaking out. this has happened before and I just move on bc I know what I was doing and like it wasn’t even a compulsion like “oh am I attracted to this?” Like the compulsions that come with sexual ocd. It was just autopilot dissociative self touching and I just was zoning out while doing my work. idk if this makes sense I probably sound like a monster. I keep having what if thoughts like what if I was doing it to that or what if I am a monster and it’s that bad to the point where I am unaware
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