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I tend to sexually fantasize and/or romantically as well when I am emotionally okay and at stable mentality so whenever I have these good days , ocd immediately gets in the way . For example - I would fantasize about my guy crush and feel erection ,but then images or thoughts race my Head and make me believe I am into whatever I was thinking during the ocd spike . I know I am not attractive to anyone other than guys .
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I understand how you’re feeling . You’re obviously exhausted and feeling so flared up because ocd wants you to believe your thoughts or worst possible thing that does against your values , however - giving this cliche advice , you just have to sit wit the anxiety . I reflect back to all of my episodes I have had for years and makes me feel hopeful I can still go further into this ocd battle . It’s all just a cycle . And you are not your ocd . Sorry if this didn’t help; as someone once posted “ you’ve been through this before and you can get out again “ - this helped me find relief .
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It sounds like your having an intrusive sexual thought & your compulsion is to flex your pelvic muscles. Can you try to sit with the uncomfortable sexual thought & NOT flex? Sounds like classic OCD to me. OCD always wants us to think it’s something else or ‘special’ or REALLY gross, but at the end of the day, it’s just your OCD!
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- 3y
Just wanna say I completely agree with all of this^^^ and, none of us are “sickos” including you, we just have very intense reactions to our intrusive thoughts (and everyone has intrusive thoughts. Everyone. They just bother us more than they bother people who don’t have OCD)
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Oh also sometimes I try to resist but it seems like I can’t do it every time all day? Like it’s not sustainable And I feel garbage today
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And does anyone have advice on how to handle this because regular ocd advice I feel like doesn’t fully address this
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- 24w
TW// nsfw and 18 up pls i can self pleasure without even realizing it. not like full blown, but it just happens when i dissociate and think about past flings or whenever im bored. just like casual touching myself. sometimes it happens when im scrolling on my phone or when im doing school work. what sucks is sometimes kids will pop up on my phone and for example today i was doing studies on a mental health in children. when i came to, basically becoming fully aware, i was like wtf. because of what was on my screen and what i was researching. it freaked me out really bad and i know it wasn’t with any bad intent it just makes me feel bad if that makes sense. like i dissociate basically and i am doing the touching like on pilot mode if that makes sense so whatever content on my phone or schoolwork isn’t even associated with the act. It just makes me feel like i was doing it to whatever was on my screen which ik I wasn’t bc I would’ve been aware and freaked tf out but I still am freaking out. this has happened before and I just move on bc I know what I was doing and like it wasn’t even a compulsion like “oh am I attracted to this?” Like the compulsions that come with sexual ocd. It was just autopilot dissociative self touching and I just was zoning out while doing my work. idk if this makes sense I probably sound like a monster. I keep having what if thoughts like what if I was doing it to that or what if I am a monster and it’s that bad to the point where I am unaware
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- 22w
Okay so In the moment I get intrusive thoughts about children which I hate. I get the gronal responses which I always so many compultions after. My ocd is very bad and I’m showering and changing my bedding around 8 times. Therapists have told me I’m the worse they’ve ever known. That’s how bad my life is atm. I hate this disorder. I want to know if ocd can cause these things as it will help me to fight my compulsions and just except it’s ocd… In the moment the gronal responses are genuinely pleasurable and I struggle to ignore them and stop them, in the moment t I want them even if it was due to a thought of a kid My OCD will tell me I’m aroused I’ll feel aroused then when moving around in my bed it’ll tell me to make my vagina touch my bedding for a feeling while I’m turning over and I purposely do it in the moment… I hate it. After I do so many compilations, it’s not even me it’s like someone else controlling my body When I try to fight my compulsions I think in my mind “I like this anyways” and actually like the thoughts and gronal responses over the children, which then makes me not be able to fight them. For example my ocf was telling me to spray my feet with anti back, but then I tried to fight it and I was thinking to myself “nah l like this one I like this feeling over the kid it’s the real me” like I didn’t even feel stressed from it it’s like I wanted it. Of corse after these I do lots and many compultions Please I just want to know if ocd can do this
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- OCD Conqueror
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- 12w
I sit on a swivel chair sometimes and when people get too close to me I move the chair away from them cause I don’t wanna go crazy and move it towards their groin. But one time someone was super close to the swivel chair like they were making contact with it and I had a thought of what if I move it towards their body and I felt the need to move the chair an inch towards them and so I moved it quickly and without hesitation and idk why like I must be crazy tbh. There is also this vague sense of wrongness attached to the memory. It is present right before the movement. It almost feels like I remember thinking an evil thought or having bad intentions but just don’t really remember. I try to prevent stuff from happening but this time I snapped I guess. Also I wasn’t anxious at all until afterwards. I was in a good mood at the time. I know OCD can cause urges but it feels like I remember turning bad/evil before I did it. Idk anymore. I just can’t live like this anymore. I’m terrified of myself
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