Getting called short and midget.

I’ve been called those things my whole fucking life and at first they didn’t rlly get to me. I’m like 4’11 which is obviously very petite but there are actual adults that are smaller than me but for some reason I’m always the one getting picked on, even at 19. By “friends” (not the ones I have now), family members, so many people. And it drove me to obsessively measure myself, find videos on how to grow taller, constantly monitor my posture, and wear shoes that add height. I’ve noticed that other girls that are only 2-3 inches taller never have the same issues. Yeah maybe here and there, but not to the extent of what I have to go through. They’re also the prettier ones, more successful, more likable, so on. I’m just so tired of feeling this way, especially when I was getting so close to accepting it anyway.

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Date posted: 3y

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bubbless

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 3y

I don’t even remember because there were so many people doing it. My mom went through the same thing when she was younger and just told me to ignore it, but it’s harder when you have OCD. But I know that I ask people to stop when it’s a constant thing happening. Also thank you for learning from this. It’s hard for people to see how much of an impact it can leave even though it doesn’t seem like that big of a deal.

thebeginning

Date posted: 3y

I'm one of those adults who is smaller than you. (In my 20s and 4'9) and while this might be easier to say for me since I've never had to deal with what you've had to, just don't listen to them. If they make you hurt that mean they're hurt as well and taking it out on you. There's nothing wrong with your height it's what makes you who you are and that's a beautiful thing.

bubbless

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 3y

You’re right. I also didn’t mean to bring up shorter adults in a way where they should be made fun of instead of me, I meant that since there are adults or just people in general who are short, it’s not some new occurrence that should be ridiculed. You’re right too on our height not being wrong or strange, it’s simply the way we were born and grew up to be.

thebeginning

Date posted: 3y

@bubbless Oh I didn’t take it that way at all! I just added my height to let you know that I relate. I didn’t even think about that so don’t worry 😊 Yeah, there’s nothing wrong with our heights, whoever makes you feel awful for something you can’t control is the problem. It’s what makes you unique and that’s pretty cool.

shirleyCstar

Date posted: 23w

I should get help

This past week I realized I have not friends. It makes me feel lonely. I’ve been homeschooled my whole life, so my only social life would be work or church. I don’t have a job right now due to medical reasons. But I feel like such a fucking loser right now. The voices of my family and myself are making me feel horrible. “You couldn’t even kill yourself right.” Is what my brother said. He told me I need to grow up and realize that nobody gives a fuck. I feel like there’s something wrong with me. Am I really just a sensitive piece of shit? Am I just being dramatic? I feel so lost right now. I can’t stop comparing myself to others who seem to be doing so well. It’s not like I haven’t been searching for a job. They’ve all turned me down. I’ve gotten help and I know my resume is great. Maybe my dad is right that it’s really just how I am. People are hired because of the way they are. I am not outgoing or friendly or approachable and it makes me hate myself so much. I know I can’t kill myself. I can’t put that financial and emotional burden on my family. I’m already enough of a burden as it is. I know that I’m “never a burden,” but the truth is I am. My mom even admitted that I was the most burden of a child and it makes me feel so guilty. I wish they didn’t love me. It’s so selfish and horrible to say that. I know there’s someone out there who deserves my life and family more than I do. I deserve punishment and failure. But I want an answer. It’s impossible to know the future. Am I right? Am I really destined for failure? If only I got that answer I’d be relieved. It’s not the ideal answer, but it’s still an answer. I don’t have to try anymore. It’s fucking tiring. I know I’m not alone. I just don’t know anymore. Maybe I need to realize that this is real life and life’s not fair.

issphra 🫶🏻

Date posted: 19w

Does anyone else have thoughts like these?

Judgy thoughts. I constantly have thoughts criticizing my boyfriend. Some of these are based on insecurities like our height difference, him being shorter than me. It just feels like I always have these negative thoughts and feelings and I always feel like I need to tell my boyfriend. I **know** they’re hurtful but I feel like I’m being dishonest or something if I don’t say something. Why do I constantly want to point out his shortness or if he has a smell that may not be too pleasant (completely human, nothing foul). Why can’t I ever keep it to myself. I used to be able to because I think the normal thing is to notice and move on. I don’t understand why I just can’t or why these thoughts are so persistent. Like I’m constant looking for a flaw. It’s so draining and I can’t imagine how exhausting it is for him apart from confusing and hurtful :( I love him

Vee4

Date posted: 16w

Vent

I really hate telling my mom that I'm insecure because she just looks at me super annoyed and is like "I don't know why". Like one time I said I wanted to start working out because I hate how skinny I am and she looked at me like I was trying to fish for compliments or something and I feel like I have to defend myself and I cant talk about it. I feel like I always hate my body and any time I try to do something to fix that I regret it so so much. I was just telling her the other day how i hate myself so much I want to crawl out of my skin and she kind of just told me to work on it but I don't know how?? Ive never loved myself. Ever. I have no clue how to. The only reason I'm not doing worse to myself is because I'll get in trouble. I hate my mind and my body and lately it's been so so bad I can't look at myself without feeling nauseated. The last few months it's just gotten worse and worse I feel like. Any time I try to fix how I look I feel like I don't deserve to feel comfortable in my own skin. I feel like a lost cause at this point. I don't know if I'm ever gonna be fixed.

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