Please read This is an extract from my diary. I was just writing my thoughts to myself. I covered any personal information. Could anybody please just tell me what to do and if they’ve been through this themselves? How did you deal with it? I am not diagnosed with anything yet.
From the way it sounds, it seems like you're in an unhealthy situation where you aren't able to openly express and explore your feelings. It's especially bizarre to me that your mother would punish you for having the initiative to speak to a medical professional about your legitimate concerns; your actions demonstrate both maturity and agency, and I see nothing wrong with what you did. I'm sorry that your parents are not more willing to try to understand what you're going through and to help you process it. If they are not willing to help, then I'm afraid you cannot make them want to; however, you have the right idea. Going to a school counselor was a smart decision; catharsis is important, and if your current support system is not helping you, there is nothing wrong with seeking assistance from other places. I find it a little surprising that the school counselor shared information from your session with your mother...normally, counselors are obligated to respect confidentiality, even with minors...but she may have thought you were a danger to yourself, especially if you were severely depressed when you visited her. If you are still struggling with OCD/depression/anxiety, I would consider returning to her (or your current school counselor) and asking about how they handle confidentiality with regards to students. If it seems like they have good intentions and will respect your right to privacy, explain your situation more in depth, including your relationship with your mother, and ask if you can meet with them from time to time to privately talk about what is going on in your life. For OCD concerns specifically, I'd do a little research into ERP and bring it up when you meet with them. A therapist trained in ERP would be ideal for what you're going through, but since accessing a professional in a clinical setting may be difficult for you right now, your school counselor is your next best bet. I hope everything works out for you and that this suggestion was helpful <3
Thank you for your reply. I wasn’t feeling the best and I feel really comforted. I still struggle with OCD and other things too. I graduate from this school in 3-4 months so I’m not sure if I should wait until college to find good help. I do have a teacher I can trust who specialises in behaviour and mental issues in students who I think could help a lot, or even just hear me out when I need it. You have inspired me to keep pushing for any help <3 I’ve been doing ERP on my own for years now, ever since I figured out it was the key to recovery. I try to do it as best as I could alone and I think it helps a lot. That’s what has kept me from actually falling back all these years. Thanks again for your response, it means so much to me.
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