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- 3y
Relationship OCD
Im in my first committed relationship ever but Ive dated people before. I kept wondering if it was bad that I still had contact information/texts from people I dated and I still followed some people I met on dating apps on Instagram (usually went out with them 0-2 times so not much relationship there), still had screenshots I took on dating apps of people (for reference, to send to friends, etc). No intention of contacting these people. My boyfriend never asked anything about it, I am creating this problem guessing in my head and wondering if am in the wrong and if this will ruin things or something. I couldn’t bear ruining things I love my bf so much and have no intention whatsoever of seeing anyone else and I think this is just ocd worries. But I was so sick of worrying about these things I started deleting pictures and unfollowing on Instagram and then i got anxiety about deleting/unfollowing them like what if he finds out and then thinks it’s weird and thinks I would cheat or I have to tell him about my relationship aspect of my ocd. But then it’s like I’m hiding something from him this is something else to worry about and now I feel guilty because I don’t want him to know I deleted all this stuff and i feel like I’ve created a problem that wasn’t even there but I don’t want him to worry and he knows about my ocd but not relationship ocd specifically and it’s so hard to talk about and I just 😩