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- Lids
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Relapses are a part of the recovery process. Recovery is not a direct line there's many ups and downs. Be gentle with yourself. You can restart every time there is a setback. Sometimes good information can be gained from those moments. Are you in treatment or doing self directed ERP?
I actually had a relapse this weekend too :/ it freaking sucks but please know I’m here and so many others are too. Whenever your feeling this way don’t hesitate to post because you deserve all the love and comments you give other people. You are not a burden. I feel the same way today but I’m telling you, you make this world a lot better by existing and even though I don’t know you, I know 10000% that’s true. Don’t ever doubt that
It's not just you! Many people do not understand the agonizing struggle that goes on inside of our brains all because we are trying to protect others and ourselves. People can't see it, they don't understand why we can't just get over it with a simple fix. I've had someone tell me it sounds like I want bad things to happen all because my OCD kept finding the .0001% possibility that something bad could happen, which obviously was completely contrary to what I was trying to accomplish. You are not alone or hopeless. You have OCD and there are people out there that understand. Are you seeing a counselor? Finding a counselor that understands the way the OCD mind works is a huge relief and offers a lot of encouragement and safe space to fight fears.
You are worth so much more than that. It’s hard, but I know you can do it!!
Hey I also relapsed today and since yesterday. It's awful because it's a topic I thought I had already solved and made peace with. But I guess with OCD there is no such thing
@Lids wow your situation is so similar to mine. My mom told me she feels like I’m way too sensitive and use the OCD as a way not to hear what I don’t want to. You’re not a hopeful case though, I promise. Even though it’s tough right now, she has to understand this isn’t something you can control and as much as we can fake being happy, you deserve to feel comfortable to feel how your feeling and not have to put on a face for family. It’ll get better for sure and today may just be a harder day than the rest but it doesn’t mean you are any less strong or incapable of controlling your OCD because you are in control always and I’m so proud of you
You are very welcome! You have have have to find a counselor that specializes in OCD. Many therapists even say they can treat it and they absolutely do not have the skill set to treat it. OCD will not get better just by talking about our feelings or talking about our childhoods. It needs exposure therapy and ACT/mindfulness to be treated effectively.
You’re so kind. I hate to even post things like this but I’ve gotten lower than low this week.
All of your comments are so so encouraging! Thankyou so much! But I feel like I’m just destroying everything. My mom told me she would not feel sorry for me today. It felt so awful. I wasn’t even asking her to. I just didn’t know if I could go to my sisters and fake being happy. idk. I just don’t know what to do. So I guess I feel like it’s not even most OCD. I feel like I’m just a hopeless case.
This is so kind of you! Thankyou for everything you said. I do see a counselor but she’s never heard of pure o and does not do ERP therapy. I feel like, she makes me feel better but I’m not getting any better.
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Yes! Omg! I feel that!
Guys I’ve been working my butt off at ERP and getting my reassurance down to 0. At same time, I feel so awful and am so worked up over the fact that I’m not feeling better yet. I’m so worked up. I feel like this will never get better. I’m so sad. Idk what to do. I love my therapist and believe in my erp plan, but I don’t feel results yet after so much hard work. I’m drained and want my life back.
Hi all! I’m experiencing a bit of a relapse after thinking I had it all figured out! I think that I was actually avoiding a lot of things and not really putting that much pressure on myself to do ERP and accept uncertainty that I allowed what was a small ball of thoughts to turn into a life shattering obsession again. I’m feeling a little discouraged, and constantly questioning the meaning of existence again. This always happens when life gets hard and I lose my footing, I question the whole world and become dangerously obsessive and it makes me suicidal. I also feel like I forgot all my tools, or I’m scared that my ERP skills won’t work anymore because I thought I got rid of it so that means it’s back to stay. I just was wondering if I could have some encouragement and reminders on how to best approach this situation and stay positive. No reassurance pls 🙏🏼
I know this is such a typical OCD thought, but I really feel mine is. Without going into too much detail feel like I basically SA'd my ex without meaning to and got away with it. I feel like I need to confess to everyone, including ny current gf, but I'm worried people will never look at me the same again. I'm trying so hard with ERP but I feel like I'm just using it to avoid confronting what I've done. I feel like I'm going to get cancelled or thrown in jail and my life is going to fall apart. I feel so guilty and sorry. I want to be a good person.
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