Username: 🌧☕️

Date posted: 2y ago

Hocd

My hocd feels so real like every time i see a girl my eyes automatically goes to their tits or ass and it stresses me out and I sometimes get these intrusive thoughts out of nowhere saying “if you u really like girls then you’ll have to leave you bf” orr I get these images of being with a girl and all sorts of things there are many more but I can’t seem ti remember at the moment I’m sure they will come back to me but it feels so real sometimes I think is this true do I like girls as well?

Username: mostdope42mostdope42

Date posted: 2y ago

hey hey hey!! slow down girl! i know how anxious you must feel, trust me. that person’s comments triggered me too. this is prime time ocd. it makes you question everything and will not let you rest until you reach certainty. you don’t have to figure this out. this isnt an equation to solve. i know it is so hard to put it down, but it helps to realize that 1. your sexual orientation is the least interesting and important thing about you and 2. you may never know your sexuality and that’s OKAY. and i don’t mean that in a “just accept yourself ✨” way i mean that in a for your recovery way, learn to LIVE IN UNCERTAINTY. learn to be comfortable with saying “i dont jnow” or “maybe, maybe not”.

Username: 🌧☕️🌧☕️

Date posted: 2y ago

Thank u I literally just had a really bad ocd episode for like the first time in months. It’s just hard because my ocd is super loud and won’t shut up which leaves me anxious for ages I was doing really good with my intrusive thoughts than I came on here to get some advice than bam a sobbing episode it hurts even more because I LOVE my bf sm and when my ocd is telling me all these things I just start panicking badly

Username: soggysoggy

Date posted: 2y ago

I won’t answer because idk you but in my experience OCD messed with my idea of attraction. What I experienced felt real to me in the moment when really it was disgust and groinal response that I presumed was attraction. I thought of it only because it scared me, not because I truly liked it. What you’re describing sounds like OCD because something is telling you to break up with your bf and you don’t like that. My mind wasn’t exactly like that but it had and has a similar thinking process

Username: 745745

Date posted: 2y ago

Same except with guys… I only want to be with girls but when I see a beautiful one it’s like my eyes go to the dude when I’m not even trying to look at the dude at all… also when I see a person with long hair I used to assume that it was a girl but because there’s too many guys with long hair nowadays my HOCD tells me that “your in denial because you have feelings for a man” when I’ve never had any feelings for a man and I thought the person with long hair was a girl 😞😞😞 plus now my HOCD is making me think k had feelings in the past for men when I don’t remember that ever happening 😭😭😭

Username: gale—gale—

Date posted: 2y ago

I used to feel like this often. For me I am bisexual and I promise that doesn’t mean you have to leave your current partner. It helped me to open up to a partner or close friend that you can trust about potentially liking women too. And just because you have these thoughts doesn’t necessarily mean you actually do like women. Sometimes it’s just your brain being curious

Username: 🌧☕️🌧☕️

Date posted: 2y ago

Oh god this has triggered me ☹️ because when I was 14 or something all of a sudden I found a girl really attractive for like the first time ever and I started to get a bit anxious but after a while I told my bf at the time I was bi but after a while I was like mmm maybe not because I preferred men like woman are pretty and all that but I will only have sex with a woman and then years later My hocd started

Username: 🌧☕️🌧☕️

Date posted: 2y ago

*bff not bf

Username: GreynocdGreynocd

Date posted: 2y ago

@🌧☕️ Tw Isn't sexualitet fluid?

Username: 🌧☕️🌧☕️

Date posted: 2y ago

*i will only have sec with a man God sorry for my mistyping

Username: 🌧☕️🌧☕️

Date posted: 2y ago

@Novanocd What you mean?

Username: GreynocdGreynocd

Date posted: 2y ago

@🌧☕️ Well. Labels just kind of labels you know. Humans are more than the labels I guess. And I've read that sexuality is fluid.

Username: 🌧☕️🌧☕️

Date posted: 2y ago

@Novanocd But the thing is I would never date a girl but my ocd keep giving me these intrusive thoughts saying I’m lying and all this and it’s really stressing me out and making me anxious 😣

Username: GreynocdGreynocd

Date posted: 2y ago

@🌧☕️ Yeah. Ocd doesn't like logic. So you have to say "maybe i do maybe I don't:

Username: 🌧☕️🌧☕️

Date posted: 2y ago

@Novanocd Ok but the comment above that I commented on really triggered me I started sobbing because I felt stressed anxious and my brain was like “what if that’s true” and stuff it’s really hard

Username: GreynocdGreynocd

Date posted: 2y ago

Maybe you do, maybe not. No one can know.

Username: crazyfeelings

Date posted: 5y ago

I’m constantly thinking about hocd thoughts. What if I’m gay? What if you like her? Blah blah things like that, I can’t tell if it’s ocd anymore. Like deep down I know, and some days I know all the time I’m straight. I don’t like girls, I never have. So why can’t I just get it through my head? I’m tired of it. I literally can’t tell anymore

Sexual Orientation OCD

Username: Idk

Date posted: 5y ago

I’m so afraid I might be lesbian. I was very anxious at first but it started to calm down. I’m only 15 and I have a boyfriend I love. At least I think I do, I always chose to question everything and over analyze. I found out about hocd and it described everything I was feeling. I’d take test and read articles like “am I lesbian” but I have never fantasied a girl or wanted to be with a girl sexually or romantically. But what if I’m in denial? I do think girls are physically attractive but I never crushed on a girl. I have always crushed on boys. And liked being with them. I’m just so lost. My anxiety about it had calmed down. But the question is still there sometimes. Earlier today, I found a girl pretty and I got scared thinking that meant something. Then I read about women who have married men, but they know they’re lesbian. I’m scared that that’ll Happen to me. I don’t want to be lesbian. No disrespect. But I just want to be happy. I think I’ve suffered from ocd before. Tell me anyone if I’m wrong. But I used to have thoughts of that my boyfriend would murder me in the future because of theses videos that triggered me. It caused me so much pain and felt so real. That I eventually started to think I’d murder my mom and sister for no reason. I felt so helpless. But I got through it. I hope I get through this. Please any advice? Is this hocd?? Does anyone else feel this way?

Sexual Orientation OCD

Username: anotherocd123

Date posted: 5y ago

Okay so I have been struggling with HOCD for so fucking long. I never felt like I had crushes on boys growing up but I wasn’t attracted to girls either (this was through 5th grade). Until 6th grade hit. I remember it like it was yesterday. I had the thought walking up the stairs and it was “You’re lesbian.” And ever since that thought was there and I fought it I have been dealing with all types of OCD ever since (been going on for 7 years). And only this year I found it was OCD. But it’s hard because I don’t know if I’m actually gay or I convinced myself I’m gay because I gave up and gave in. Now whenever I see I pretty girl I feel tingling. And I wanted to prove to myself that I wasn’t a lesbian so I look up pretty pictures of girls with their boobs out and I loved it. And I wanna make out with a girl so intensely. But then at the same I don’t wanna be in a relationship with a girl and I wanna marry a guy and I just desperately wanted to be like by a guy. But I get so horny whenever girls are in bikinis and stuff. But I have OCD and I’m so confused.

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