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- 3y ago
What to do??
I have very abstract intrusive thoughts and it makes me anxious when I look them up and see that nobody else has talked about them or anything
I have very abstract intrusive thoughts and it makes me anxious when I look them up and see that nobody else has talked about them or anything
My brother has alot of abstract intruisive thoughts. And we have ocd in the family. Sometimes he has thoughts I could never even imagine. But he's also an artist and I think it has alot to do with how his brain is just briliant and beautiful. Everyone has different thoughts. I also had alot of intrusive thoughts I've never heard of or found online. And yes, anything can be an intrusive thought. So you will be allright, I know it š
Thank you that makes me feel like I might not be so alone in the weird thinking! š„ŗšā¤ļø
@Beebuh You're not! And I also feel the same sometimes with what you wrote under tomtom45 comment I also sometimes cant ever describe what I'm thinking with words š I used to be so afraid of this.
@Nandwen Yes it just recently started happening to me after a panic attack about a week ago and itās been so hard and scary because I feel like itās not even OCD at this point. Itās hard to get over it because it just feels so random and like there are no posts or articles or podcasts on super abstract thoughts in ocd so it makes me feel so alone and anxious!
@Nandwen Any more advice on the topic of abstract thoughts? Itās been bothering me so much tonight I feel panicky
What would you like to happen? If it helps, from what I can tell, literally anything can be an intrusive thought. Anything a human mind can think of, it's possible to obsess over. Especially if it touches on something you care about. I suppose the proper ERP way to respond would be "maybe noone's had same obsession as me, maybe they have, I probably can't figure that out". Can see how that's hard tho and up for hearing about it if you want to share
Thank you! Some of my thoughts are so abstract and weird that itās hard to even put into words what I was even thinking!
That makes a lot of sense actually. I'm sure it doesn't make it any easier to "tell yourself" that it's OCD and not reality though. No matter how irrational
Could you describe some of the thoughts? I'm not going to offer you reassurance I promise you that, I'm just curious.
Yes! My main theme has always been centered around āgoing crazyā so Iām not sure if thatās why but I get thoughts like āis my boyfriend somehow this food and did I just eat my boyfriendā
Someone once told me that because Iāve gone through so many themes and obsessions and compulsions that over time my ocd has started becoming more abstract because Iāve ran out of ānormalā things to fear
@Beebuh Omg I just had a major realization reading this. Thank you. And same. I get weird stuff like this too. I actually stopped eating meat partially because of this.
Iām having a very bad evening with my intrusive thoughts. I was doing really good dealing with them but tonight one hit me hard. Iāve been having a lot of different intrusive thoughts but Iāll have one occasionally about hurting my mom or my dog who I love and theyāre the only family I have in my life. Theyāre my world. I was helping my mom put away the dishes and I had the big kitchen knife in my hand and my intrusive thought was you could stab your mom. And then my brain said I had a twitch in my hand and that meant I wanted to do it. Let me just say that I wouldnāt hurt a fly. I actually caught a fly in a glass and put it outside instead of killing it this evening before this intrusive thought happened. Iām such a gentle and compassionate and caring person and these thoughts instantly cause me to have a panic attack. And I have no one to talk to them about. I know theyāre hard for my mom to hear and I donāt want to be any more of a burden than I already am. I do desperately want to tell her and have her reassure me that Iām not crazy or a psycho. Then my thoughts wander to if your hand did flinch could you be a psychopath. Is hurting someone in you. I know itās not but I feel like my mind is out to get me and hurt me. Iām working so hard and I thought I was doing so good but I need to know why I have these thoughts. Theyāre not ok. I need someone to help me make sense of why. I know we arenāt supposed to ruminate but I shouldnāt have thoughts like this about people I love and care about the most in the world.
This might contain triggering content, but I'm also wondering if others have dealt with this similar thought, and if so, how to deal with it? Overall, I've been doing so well these past few days. I'm able to eat again, which I hadn't been able to do because of how much anxiety I'd been experiencing. I'm spending time around loved ones and not just rotting in my room, and I've been able to wake up without immediately being bombarded by intrusive thoughts. When things first got really bad, I'd wake my mom up every night for reassurance, but I haven't done that in a while either. I'm really proud of myself, but there's still this nagging thought in my mind... While looking through others posts on here, hoping to find advice that'd fit my situation, I ended up making things worse. Someone mentioned how they had a fear that they'd purposely search for illegal content (related to POCD). I panicked, and "what ifs" flooded my thoughts. "What if the intrusive thoughts affect who I am as a person, and I do that?" I'm terrified that I'll search for those things, which I know means I wouldn't do it. But then, another person on here said they'd actually looked for those things, and that freaked me out even more. Does that mean it's possible for that to happen to me? I don't want to do that, but I keep having intrusive thoughts surrounding it. I've been doing so well these past few days. I'm just... stuck. I don't know what to do. I've spoken with other people who have the same fears, but how do I manage this? It's not something I've even thought about before seeing those posts. I've been practicing accepting the uncertainty, but I'm really struggling with this one. I hate this. This morning, I woke up, and the intrusive thoughts were back. It's just disheartening.
Iām sharing this bc I need advice or even support from anyone who can relate. If you canāt relate and donāt think youāll say anything helpful or kind pls donāt comment anything⦠Iāve been struggling with somethings thatās making me question myself. There has been moments while self pleasuring when I get intrusive thoughts, in those moments it feels like Iām enjoying or even self pleasuring myself bc of the thought. Right after I immediately have an anxiety attack and my HEART drops bc it feels terrible I feel like a disgusting monster :( ppl have told me I havenāt done a bad bc of how intense my guilt and panic are but I keep thinking that MAYBE I made a horrible decision in the moment and the guilt is just realising that itās just wrong this doesnāt make sense to me because Iāve always told myself that I would never act on this in 1 million years and Iāve been known that these things are wrong so Iām just like constantly questioning myself these feelings and exact same situation has happened two times already I even promised myself that I wouldnāt act on anything beforehand and yeah, I still felt like I did act on my thought during my alone time Iām genuinely convinced that Iām a horrible and itās even got into the point where I donāt wanna be here anymore and I donāt even think this is my OCD :( tbh
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