In my head
- Date posted
- 3y
So tired
I’m so tired of my own head picking me to pieces.. it’s relentless the constant thoughts of disgust and hatred I have for myself. I just want to sleep
yeemoyeemo
- Date posted
- 3y
It's like you read my mind, the constant obsessing and giving into the complusions, every day is a constant cycle of pain. Sleep is out of the question when you can't even lie down in peace. I know I'm not of much help, but do you have any coping mechanisms that could help you comfort yourself when you're trying to sleep? Maybe like some sort of distraction? Maybe a film, show or a video on YouTube that could help you keep your focus on something else for a moment?
CesarCesar
- Date posted
- 3y
My brother, God loves you just as you are. Now that we know that we can answer other things. I used to not sleep either because of ocd, therapy and God's grace saved me. Please seek help. While you find help here's a good advice, when you find yourself too deep in intrusive thoughts and figuring out what they mean, take a step back and first accept you're anxious, then step back and accept you have thoughts you don't want and can't control nor stop on your own, take another step back and accept that ocd is not your fault nor can it be turned off by thinking out of it or by anything that you a person with ocd knows. Take another step back and accept that the thoughts feel real because you're the one experiencing them and your brain doesn't know the difference and it wants to solve any questions because that's what it does. After you've taken all those steps back notice how you feel and once you feel better, thank God and start searching for a therapist, try it on NOCD. If the anxiety is still too much and you feel out if control, surrender control to Jesus He loves you and knows what's better for us. I know how you feel and trust me I've been there before ND I once thought I'd be stuck but thank God I'm better now. You will also recover, be patient, He loves you just as you are.
In my head In my head
- Date posted
- 3y
It’s so tiring. I used to watch the same thing over and over just to numb my mind but it’s stopped working, I’ve started focusing on my breathing or my partners breathing but it doesn’t work all the time either, it’s seems to be when I’m highly emotional I find it harder to deal with my thoughts. Just knowing I’m not alone is helpful :)
yeemoyeemo
- Date posted
- 3y
I do the same thing omf.. I literally rewatch the same videos every darn night just to have something play in the background so I don't drown in those tiresome thoughts, and yeah it doesn't always work unfortunately.. but seeing that you are trying is so great. Just remember that these thoughts don't define who you are as a person. I wish you the best and I hope you will get the help and support you deserve. This fight can feel so lonesome, talking to you has made my struggles feel more valid, I hope you kind and patient to yourself, much love
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- Date posted
- 18w
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