How do you know it's a false memory/OCD and not something that actually happened? I feel like a terrible person. I'm a very creative person, and the more I stress about whether I did this bad thing the more it seems real. The worst part is is that I have no way of reassurance without sounding crazy. I have ROCD and I randomly started obsessing over the 7 months of our relationship whether or not I've cheated on him. Even though I love him more than anything and I would never do that! I'm constantly triggered by coworkers or classmates that I've previously found attractive or liked and/or I know they've liked me or flirted with me. I'm at the point now where I'm rereading simple texts/straightforward texts of these people asking me about school work or if I could cover a shift trying to find proof of something I can't remember. My partner knows about my OCD and is very understanding and supportive. I feel like I'm living a lie. When this first started my rational brain knew this wasn't real, but the more I become obsessed the more it becomes more distorted. I feel guilty for being happy. I just want to be guaranteed it's not real so I can move on with my life. It's moving to specific people now and it's scaring me how real it feels.

My entire OCD automated system is centered around this thought or “theme.” It is so scary when thoughts of randomly cheating “pop up” and I don’t remember regardless of what amount of time has passed and your body genuinely feels the guilt and pressure. I’m currently being treated by medication, therapy and exposure therapy. My thoughts are a lot less frequent and reactive than before (as well as compulsions). I feared reading the rest of this post because it mirrors mine. YOU ARE NOT ALONE.

i suggest watching youtube videos about false memory ocd, and i seriously doubt that you did cheat on your partner

I have this too....thinking I've cheated...it sucks

Thank you dostrick. This is super scary. I'm back on medication, and starting therapy soon. I hope it will go away soon, and not ruin my relationship.

Does it ever happen to you guys after alcohol?

I would look into a couple things Number 1 . Why am I so preoccupied with the false memory. Is the problem really in the memory or that I'm scared something bad might happen if I don't solve it. Is it possible that I'm hooked on the 7 months because *7* is a lucky number and really I think it has to do with memory but I'm preacupies with magical thinking OCD like I'm down on my luck and therefore the relationship was "7 months" over ....

Basically, am I struggling with Rocd or maybe It's just I'm scared that something bad may of happened through me not being careful in the past and now I need to solve the past so something bad doesn't happen... Meaning is it really an issue with false memory. Are you searched for the cumpolsions but not finding it? I was searching for my false memory cumpolsions for 2 years until I noticed that my only problem was that something bad may of happen if I don't solve the events. So I came up with the saying "something bad might happen " and than everything diminished because OCD learned that yes, maybe something bad will happen and there is nothing I can do about it. Take a few steps back and see what else is there, what's beanetg the obssesions? What else happened . Did I feel betraited maybe I'm having some anger to. Maybe I need something like Emdr to reprocess the events. Sometimes we run to conclusions and try assessing the situation by saying it's relation - OCD but really the theme changed to something else. Or I want to get revenge on my "x" and now I'm heading towards Some trauama and so on. I have switched from Zoloft to Prozac and my urgency to solve false memory went down very quickly. A great way to tell if medication should be looked into is am I having maldaptive thinking styles? Am I thinking in all or nothing. Am I hyperfocused on the obssesion ? And most importantly how is my appetite doing? Maybe Depression is playing a role Please note , I'm not a clinical proffesional so please don't take my advice for any licensed professional

my problem is my mind causes false memories after drinking...I never get them when sober

I know it's out of fear of losing him. I can't imagine my life without him. Early on in our relationship he mentioned that us cheating on each other is the only thing that could break us up because he was so sure I was it for him (and I feel the same). I am sober when I have these thoughts, but I fear going out for a drink with any of my girlfriends because of my OCD. It's really affecting my social life. I feel like a monster the more real my false memories become. I'm on Effexor (because Paxil was giving me bad side effects), but I don't know if this one is working either as it's been only 3 week