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My entire OCD automated system is centered around this thought or “theme.” It is so scary when thoughts of randomly cheating “pop up” and I don’t remember regardless of what amount of time has passed and your body genuinely feels the guilt and pressure. I’m currently being treated by medication, therapy and exposure therapy. My thoughts are a lot less frequent and reactive than before (as well as compulsions). I feared reading the rest of this post because it mirrors mine. YOU ARE NOT ALONE.
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i suggest watching youtube videos about false memory ocd, and i seriously doubt that you did cheat on your partner
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I have this too....thinking I've cheated...it sucks
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Thank you dostrick. This is super scary. I'm back on medication, and starting therapy soon. I hope it will go away soon, and not ruin my relationship.
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Does it ever happen to you guys after alcohol?
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I would look into a couple things Number 1 . Why am I so preoccupied with the false memory. Is the problem really in the memory or that I'm scared something bad might happen if I don't solve it. Is it possible that I'm hooked on the 7 months because *7* is a lucky number and really I think it has to do with memory but I'm preacupies with magical thinking OCD like I'm down on my luck and therefore the relationship was "7 months" over ....
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Basically, am I struggling with Rocd or maybe It's just I'm scared that something bad may of happened through me not being careful in the past and now I need to solve the past so something bad doesn't happen... Meaning is it really an issue with false memory. Are you searched for the cumpolsions but not finding it? I was searching for my false memory cumpolsions for 2 years until I noticed that my only problem was that something bad may of happen if I don't solve the events. So I came up with the saying "something bad might happen " and than everything diminished because OCD learned that yes, maybe something bad will happen and there is nothing I can do about it. Take a few steps back and see what else is there, what's beanetg the obssesions? What else happened . Did I feel betraited maybe I'm having some anger to. Maybe I need something like Emdr to reprocess the events. Sometimes we run to conclusions and try assessing the situation by saying it's relation - OCD but really the theme changed to something else. Or I want to get revenge on my "x" and now I'm heading towards Some trauama and so on. I have switched from Zoloft to Prozac and my urgency to solve false memory went down very quickly. A great way to tell if medication should be looked into is am I having maldaptive thinking styles? Am I thinking in all or nothing. Am I hyperfocused on the obssesion ? And most importantly how is my appetite doing? Maybe Depression is playing a role Please note , I'm not a clinical proffesional so please don't take my advice for any licensed professional
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my problem is my mind causes false memories after drinking...I never get them when sober
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I know it's out of fear of losing him. I can't imagine my life without him. Early on in our relationship he mentioned that us cheating on each other is the only thing that could break us up because he was so sure I was it for him (and I feel the same). I am sober when I have these thoughts, but I fear going out for a drink with any of my girlfriends because of my OCD. It's really affecting my social life. I feel like a monster the more real my false memories become. I'm on Effexor (because Paxil was giving me bad side effects), but I don't know if this one is working either as it's been only 3 week
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- 23w
I suffer with a constant worry of what if I’ve cheated. You name it I’ve thought I’ve done it. I’m quite flirty at nature and also insecure. Sometimes hand in hand I don’t think they balance each other out as the constant need for attention to validate myself can backfire. Although I have the best partner ever and she makes me feel nothing less than beautiful I still crave validation from others. That being said someone I used to work with left over half a year ago and when they worked at my current place of work we were very close. Text everyday, phone calls you name it. However looking back I was extra flirty as I wanted him to fancy me. I wanted the power to turn him down to make myself feel better. Awful I know. Now all I can think about is what if I’ve done something. What if I kissed him. What if I’ve slept with him etc. I’ve kept our whole conversations from the minute I got his personal number. I constantly search key words to see if my intrusive thoughts are real. I can except the uncertainty my therapist tells me about as if I have done the worst and cheated I would loose my partner and our 10 year relationship. I love her so much she is my life but I can’t stop thinking what if I’ve cheated. Does anyone else suffer with the same theme? If so how do you cope?
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Despite the fact that I have never once acted flirtatiously with someone else over the course of my 3-year relationship, never talked to anyone inappropriately, never touched or interacted with anyone inappropriately, I have been battling constant ROCD obsessions centered around cheating ever since my partner and I got together. I am constantly worried about whether certain things are cheating: daydreaming about another person (already told my partner about this and he said it was okay and that he does it too), talking in a group chat with someone, sitting next to someone, speaking to them in person. I question my intentions. I worry that I cheated by wearing my hair a certain way in an attempt to look more attractive or by jokingly poking someone with a fake sword (despite doing it to other people too), looking through someone’s social media, etc. I have confessed so many ridiculous things to my partner and he’s always told me that none of them are cheating. I feel so guilty for being attracted to someone else, despite the fact that my partner said it was fine and normal. I have made a very very conscious effort to limit my interactions with this person. I never ever ever ever message them privately, I make an obsessive effort to NOT reply to their messages in a group server (constantly keeping track of the ratio of my replies to their messages compared to other people’s), to ignore them when I see them in person and hardly ever speak to them or initiate conversation with them. Yet I still feel like a disgusting dirty cheater who is hiding a big secret.
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So I have been struggling with the same theme of ocd for 4 months now. My ocd centers around past events/false memories that ocd skews to make seem bad or it twists my thoughts on what my intentions were. this is related to cheating or being weird while I have been in my amazing relationship. I have never cheated on my partner and never will and I believe it is wrong. But my ocd is telling me other wise. I love my partner so very much and I would never want to hurt him but my brain is getting to me. I was getting better. I was trying “maybe I did, maybe I didn’t”, I have been back on meds and in therapy and I stopped confessing random interactions from years/months ago about 1.5 weeks ago and it really helped. But now I woke up this morning and feel the pit in my stomach again. I feel extra critical and like why would you do this? What does this say about you? What was your intention with this? And I’m just stuck mentally reviewing and ruminating on everything you could imagine. I know my personality and I know in the moment maybe I did find them attractive but mainly I was just being nice or funny or even just a good friend, but looking back now I’m like “was it flirting?” “Why did I still snap this person” “why would I even talk to them” and stuff like that. I feel this intense sense of guilt. I have told my partner everything that I keep getting stuck on and he didn’t care, he said he understands or “that’s a little weird but it’s okay” and hasn’t missed a beat. He said eveything I’ve told him is normal and I’ve heard that from my friends too. I just really need help. I don’t know what to do anymore. I am so disappointed because I thought I was gonna be done with this, so why am I still so worried and caught up in this.
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